Is it worth dying for?

A lot is being said about the man in Arlington, TX that inserted himself into a situation and died as a result.

Claude Werner has a fine take on the whole incident.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: make choices that maximize your enjoyment of beer & TV.

Or put it even simpler: is it worth dying for?

I can totally understand the man’s feeling, the pull to want to intervene and help. We often lament about how good people stand idly by and don’t step in to help. The whole
“All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.” thing. But we must look deeper than a quotation, and we must consider: is it not evil that this man has now left behind a wife and children? Did this man’s choice actually allow evil to triumph? Would it not also be a good thing for a good man to continue to be a good husband, a good father, a good business owner, a good citizen of his community?

If you are going to carry a gun, you also carry a great responsibility.

You must look beyond the hard physical skills of marksmanship, and look towards the deeper issues of mindset and mentality. You must understand the legal factors. You must understand the deeper philosophical requirements. You must know what you can and will do, and what you will not do. Your line must be clear, it must be articulable to yourself, your family, the police, the judge and jury, to God, to whomever. It may come off as hard, cold, callous, and you may have to find your balance, you may have to come to terms with such dichotomy. Regardless, you must do it. You must know before you must act upon it.

Else, you get what you have here.

2016-05-03 training log

Felt good to be squatting again.

Had to not squat the past couple weeks due to circumstance, and honestly when I got out of bed I actually felt like just going back to bed and not squatting. But no, 2 weeks is too many, so off I went.

And it felt pretty good.

The front squats continue to be a good thing. I may not continue with them as an emphasis, but I do think it’d be worthwhile for me to keep them around in some respect for some time. I continue to work on keeping myself as upright as possible, which when I do, really works what I need. I could even see myself starting to do something like squat, pause squat, and front squat, then some hamstring focus, and done.

Speaking of hamstring, I’m still trying to “get it” on RDL’s. I upped the weight slightly, but I’m still trying to get form and technique. I actually did hit a few strides where I felt very much like I was working hams and not just my back — which I’m really trying to not do. After the 3×8 I did actually feel something in my hamds and glutes, so maybe I’m starting to get it. But I can’t articulate exactly what I did to feel that so I can repeat it, so I’m a ways off from “getting it”, still, it’s a step forward.

After all those, the leg presses and such… by the time I got the extensions and curls my legs were pretty spent. All in all tho, a good day.

  • Front Squat
    • bar x 10
    • 95 x 5
    • 125 x 4
    • 155 x 3
    • 185 x 2
    • 215 x 1
    • 165 x 8
    • 165 x 8
    • 165 x 8
  • RDL
    • 205 x 8
    • 205 x 8
    • 205 x 8
  • Leg Press
    • 225 x 15
    • 315 x 12
    • 405 x 10
    • 225 x 12
  • Leg Extensions
    • 55 x 11
    • 55 x 12
    • 55 x 12
  • Leg Curls
    • 25 x 17
    • 25 x 12
    • 25 x 11

2016-05-02 training log

I’m having fun, and I think I may just stay the course.

So today continues the trend of things just getting better. Progress continues, slow, but progress. I mean, when you hit a couple more reps than last week, that’s progress. I’m quite happy with all of this, and it’s starting to influence my thinking.

First, I think I’m done worrying about fat loss. After almost 2 years of it, I’ve had enough: mentally, physically and even emotionally. I’m under a lot of stress at work, and frankly lifting is a huge source of stress relief and happiness. But of course, it too is a stress on the body — but one I’m happy to have. So I need to take measures to allow it to work, so eating more and getting more sleep are really helping out. Thing is, while the past some months on the cut didn’t really amount to much on the scale, they amounted to a lot in the mirror. I look a lot better PLUS I can look at things like how I need to buy a new — smaller — belt. So sure, the scale showed little progress, but everything else showed progress. Am I totally where I want to be in terms of fat loss? No, but I think I need some serious break before I head down that road again. I want to get my strength back, I want to get my muscle back, I want to have some fun.

And lifting as I have the past some weeks has been tons of fun for me. I just set up what I wanted to do, and I’m doing it. I’m making progress both in size and strength, so gee… life’s good.

My debate has been to follow some more rigid programs, like going back to 5/3/1, but today I started to think that I won’t do that — at least not yet. That what I’m doing right now is making progress: I’m getting bigger, I’m getting stronger, everything’s doing well, so why mess with it? I’m kinda enjoying the hypertrophy focus and seeing it pay off, and again I’m having a lot of fun.

Will I change it up a bit? I’m thinking so. I’m thinking I’ll probably stick with what I’m doing right now for another few weeks, take a deload, then come back with a similar but varied program. For example, instead of incline BB and flat DB pressing, switch to flat BB and incline DB, y’know? Stick with that about 6 weeks or so, then see from there what I’d like to do. That might call for something like a Strong-15 short cycle just to eek out a little strength work. Who knows… again I’m just enjoying things right now and so long as I’m seeing progress, great.

I’m just having a lot of fun, and the thought of adopting a rigid program right now isn’t flying with me: maybe that’s why I’ve been unable to decide what to do. I’m having fun, I’m making progress so why mess with it?

  • Incline BB Press
    • bar x 10
    • 115 x 5
    • 135 x 4
    • 155 x 3
    • 185 x 2
    • 205 x 1
    • 155 x 14
    • 155 x 7
  • DB Bench Press
    • 50e x 10
    • 50e x 10
    • 50e x 10
    • 50e x 10
    • 50e x 9
  • Machine Flies
    • 80 x 12
    • 80 x 12
    • 80 x 12
  • Seated DB Press
    • 40e x 10
    • 40e x 10
    • 40e x 9
    • 40e x 8
  • DB Lat Raises
    • 20e x 12
    • 20e x 10
    • 20e x 10, then a drop set, and partial burns

2016-04-29 training log

I’ve taken a bunch of time off this week.

With the 4-day instructor class, the lack of sleep, the stress at work, just everything — I’m exhausted. Getting sleep and recoverying, being able to function through all the stress and crap of life right now is far more important. I won’t lose all my gainz. I need my gym time to be fun, productive, and good — my escape from the shit.

So what better thing to celebrate with than arm day. 😉

Was good. Everything continues to go up.

To that end, I’m giving serious thought to just changing gears — even as soon as this Monday. All this cutting isn’t fun, is just more stress, and frankly I need some sort of fun right now. I’m enjoying the gaining I’m doing, and so I’m thinking I’m going to end things now and just move along to my next goals. I’m ok with it. However, I may stick on the current gym plan thorugh Memorial Day due to some logistics. But we’ll see.

Anyways, good day today. Everything’s going up. Made sure I really focused on eccentrics today as I’ve been getting away from that.

  • Close-Grip Bench Press
    • 135 x 5
    • 155 x 4
    • 175 x 3
    • 195 x 2
    • 215 x 1
    • 175 x 12
    • 175 x 6
  • Skull Crushers
    • 45 x 15
    • 55 x 12
    • 65 x 8
    • 65 x 6
    • 45 x 14
  • V-bar pushdowns
    • 45 x 12
    • 40 x 14
    • 35 x 17
    • 30 x 20
  • BB Curls
    • 45 x 12 (strict)
    • 55 x 10
    • 65 x 8
    • 95 x 4 (cheat)
    • 95 x 3
    • 95 x 3
  • Hammer Curls
    • 25e x 10
    • 25e x 10
    • 25e x 8
    • 25e x 8
  • Cable Curls
    • 55 x 19
    • 60 x 12
    • 65 x 9
    • 55 x 14

AAR: Cornered Cat Instructor Development Course – KR Training April 2016

Always be learning.

From April 22-25, 2016, KR Training hosted Kathy Jackson of The Cornered Cat and her Instructor Development Course. From the course description:

During this four-day course that includes both classroom and range time, we will focus on teaching defensive handgun skills to adult students. With personalized instruction designed to help you become a better teacher, our lecture and discussion subjects will include firearms safety, emergency protocols, classroom management, principles of adult learning, gendered learning styles and classroom dynamics, developing student confidence, legal considerations for use of force, instructor liability, writing and documenting course materials, effective coaching, and holster/carry method selection. Range work includes left- and right-handed manipulations with semi-auto pistols and revolvers, developing student accuracy, teaching trigger control, demonstrating techniques, developing your range presence, giving effective voice commands, observational safety skills, malfunction clearances, teaching drawstroke, working with instructional teams and assistants, diagnosing and solving shooting problems, and sight or vision issues.

Although we will enjoy many shooting activities during this class and will coach each other to shoot better, please be aware that we will primarily focus on teaching skills development, not shooting skills development. You will have an opportunity to assess your own shooting skills against several objective standards, which will give you some idea of where to focus your efforts for personal growth. If you find that your current shooting abilities are not up to standard, that’s a subject you can and should address in classes designed specifically to improve the skills you need to improve.

Come prepared to teach and learn during our time together.

It was a long but fun and fruitful 4 days.

Background

While Karl Rehn is certainly mentor #1 for me, I would say Kathy Jackson is one of my earliest influences. When I was first getting serious with firearms, I found Kathy’s website and read just about everything she wrote. Still to this day I find her work on “Kids & Guns” to be the best resource on the topic, and always refer folks to that series of articles.

I don’t recall how Kathy and I first crossed paths, but I do have a comment here on my website from her from back in 2009, so at least since then (Kathy and I talked about it and we believe it was even earlier but… whatever). So we’ve known of each other for some time; she’s linked to my blog numerous times and I hers, and we’ve conversed online from time to time. But it wasn’t until this weekend we finally got to meet.

I will confess one reason for attending was just to finally meet her. In fact, I was the impetus for this class. I had read about Kathy’s first time offering this class (either Tam’s or Melody’s), and around the same time Karl and us other KRT instructors were talking future class schedule. I mentioned Kathy’s class to Karl one morning and by lunch time they had come to agreement. Huzzah! 🙂 So of course I had to attend.

Some have asked me why I’d want to attend this class. What would I expect to get out of it?

Learning.

Improvement.

Growth.

The older I get, the more I learn, the more I realize how much I don’t know and how much more there is to learn. Given my background, I didn’t expect everything that Kathy taught to be a novel realization for me, but I knew there’d be something. Her training and lineage is different from mine (tho with some overlaps), her approach and attitude are different. And I know that even hearing about things I already know, I’ll hear about it from a different perspective. I know some new light will be shed, I know something will expand and grow. I know I will come out better than I went in.

Achievement unlocked.

General Stuff

Class was small. There was Kathy, her assistants Don and Tina, then 8 students. Three of the students were male (myself, Karl, one other), and five were female. I knew half of the students, the other half I met for the first time. While I had hoped for a sold-out class, I was happy for the smaller class which meant an improved teacher-to-student ratio. Weather was good, facilities were in order, and away we went.

Classes were generally 9-to-5 each day, and we worked through lunch. I appreciated the timing because with the KRT facility being where it is, having that drive in and out every day adds to the total time investment, plus it wears on you. Running a sharp 9-to-5 instead of an 8 until we run long and maybe get out of there whenever we do, was appreciated. Right there is a key factor in a good instructor: classroom time management, and Kathy ran things well.

After introductions and generalities to get up and running, class officially began.

Course Focus

Usually I break down my AAR’s by day, but this time I don’t want to do that because it doesn’t do the course justice.

What did we talk about? A lot of things.

Some of the class was presented in the context of a basic/introductory firearms familiarization class. As Kathy said, then we’re “pulling the sheet rock” off the wall to actually see the wiring, the pipes, and other “behind the scenes” things that are necessary to make such a class go. The learning then had 3 facets:

  1. You learn how to have such a class. How to have an introductory class, what to talk about, drills to do, and other things to allow you to formulate your own such class.
  2. You learn how to run such a class. You learn how to run the line, keep it safe, keep it orderly. How to present (e.g. tell, show, do, feedback).
  3. And here’s the subtle one: you learn by watching how Kathy actually runs her own class. You have to remember that we’re here in a class ourselves, that Kathy is teaching it, so pay attention to the things she’s doing to run this class itself! There are things you can pick up.

Consequence? A lot of information.

While of course we had trigger time, this was not a class about guns, about learning to shoot. The fact we shot guns was merely a necessary thing  because that’s the topic realm in which we are teaching. This is a course about becoming a better instructor.

You learn how to run a classroom. You learn how to run the range.

But most of all? You learn about people.

I think that’s what really sets this class apart from other classes I’ve taken. Other classes primarily focus on the nuts-and-bolts. While we certainly received a lot of nuts-and-bolts discussion here, a lot of time was spent on people. On developing our people skills, on being able to work with our students as people. I know that seems like a “DUH” thing, but honestly I see it so much in this industry and in others where “those in charge” and “those teaching” seem to forget their audience/students are people – with needs, emotions, baggage, and differences.

If our goal is to improve our students, then we have to connect with them. We have to have their respect, their trust, and their personal interests in mind.

Kathy threw out a quote from Massad Ayoob (and hopefully I recorded it correctly):

Sooner or later every instructor realizes students don’t come to you for competence, but for confidence.

Sure, competence is what we might be teaching, but confidence is what we want people to leave with. You need people skills, you need to remember and work with your students as people.

And like it or don’t, men and women are different in this regard. Yes, sweeping generality, but go around the block enough times and no matter what modern culture wants to espouse, even underlying their commentary is acknowledgement that men and women are (generally) different. Kathy’s material is not exclusively woman oriented, but she does bring up women topics. Some of the topics work to address everyone regardless of gender. Some topics may touch on how one gender may respond and adjustments that can be made or sensitivities that can be taken. Others are flat out gender-specific. For example, we finished Monday with a great discussion of holsters and other carry equipment, and without a doubt there were female-specific solutions discussed. I saw some products I hadn’t seen before, and I must admit that some are pretty darn cool.

I think the main problem with this class? It’s a lot of information. 🙂  Rough problem to have I know. It’s just the reality of things: that there’s lots of topics to cover, and only so much time to do so. I think Kathy did a great job getting to important topics, ensuring the “must do” topics were covered, but there’s no question people wanted to continue to dig deeper on many topics. In a way, that’s ok — always leave them wanting more. I think what will help is post-class supporting materials, be it discussion groups, reading materials, etc.. One thing that’s great about Kathy is it’s evident she herself is a student, and is always learning, always trying to improve.

Personal Take-Homes

While I don’t have a resumé like Karl or Kathy or Massad Ayoob or Tom Givens or John Farnam, I’ve got some things under my belt. Consequently, a good portion of what Kathy talked about was stuff I already knew. BUT! I consider that to be a very good thing! What it does is it provides affirmation and reinforcement about what we know. Kathy’s background is different than mine, and while our lineages and circles overlap, they are different. When you find people from different areas coming to the same conclusions as you, that speaks strongly to the validity of those conclusions.

For example, over the years I’ve been frustrated at how we “teach stance”. I think it takes too long, becomes too complicated of a process. So I started to think about a simpler, easier way to do it. What I landed upon was a runner’s stance. Not getting down into the starting blocks, but “Imagine you and I were going to have a quick little race down to the end of the hallway – when I say “on your mark”, get your body into the position you’d take to start the race”. And everyone does what you’d think, which is precisely the stance we want people to be in. It works great! It makes it simple, it makes it relatable, student’s don’t think they have something new to learn because this builds upon what they already know. There’s so many good things about this approach. So when Kathy started teaching stance (how to teach stance), I couldn’t help but smile when she used the exact same approach!

But of course, there were a lot of new things I learned. The most obvious is some aspects of working with women. I’m very proud of the fact KR Training has a lot of female students: we aren’t some high-speed-low-drag #OperatorAsFuck school. We can do that stuff, but it’s not our image. We aren’t out to be intimidating (it’s just not good business). I’ve received numerous complements from female students about how comfortable they feel, how happy to are to have chosen us, etc.. Still, there just are things I hadn’t thought about.

For example, it’s good on the reholster to look the gun back into the holster. I admit, I never realized that some women cannot see their holsters because boobs are in the way. Solution? Just move the bodypart of the way (same holds for men and their guts). I know that seems like a small thing, but that’s life for me at this point: little refinements, little details, to continue honing my skills to an even finer point.

Another good thing I got was new perspectives on existing material. Take grip. We teach that thumbs-forward grip. Kathy teachings the crush grip (thumbs are curled, clamping down over them). We do use the crush grip, but typically as an alternative to the thumbs-forward when we see someone whose strong-hand thumb keeps gripping hard and pressing their weak-hand off the gun. Is it as ideal a grip? Long-term, no. But Kathy’s fresh perspective to me was that the crush grip is easier for people to learn. Why? Because people understand crushing with their fingers/hand/grip — we all understand how to squeeze something in our fist. The thumbs forward grip does imply some additional muscular forces (e.g. use of pectorals). Me? I never really noticed because I’m pretty big and strong, but breaking down the mechanics in class, hearing Kathy’s perspective, made me realize that yes I can see how a crush grip may sometimes be the best and right grip to teach someone right out the chute (then teach them thumbs-forward down the line). There’s more to it than what I can convey in this write-up, but the larger point is I appreciate getting fresh perspectives on known material.

And this is why I like taking classes, even “beginner” classes from others: because I know there’s going to be something to learn. Even if it’s “everything I’ve heard before”, I know there will be something I can pick up and grow from.

One thing I need to work on? Being concise, especially in my range commands. For sure I can tighten up my delivery.

Fun Stuff

Class was tremendously fun. We had such a great group, so much laughter, so much cutting up.

Karl shot the class with an M&P Shield, left-handed the whole time. It was a challenge for him and he had some good take-homes from it.

During one part of the class we were working with revolvers. I had my S&W 640. I haven’t shot a revolver in… a very long time, and that gun in even longer. As we got on the line, Kathy was going to pull me off to have me work the line. Well, a fly had landed on my target and I joked “But I want to shoot the fly!” So OK, if I was going to be a smart-ass about it, they had me do it. In fact, they called the line such that only I made ready (and everyone else watched). I aimed, pressed off the shot, and got it. 🙂  I had no idea I did, because holdover — I couldn’t see the fly in order to aim properly to hit it (we were at 5 yards). And I haven’t shot that gun in ages, couldn’t remember where it’s precise holdover was at that range, with that ammo, etc..  So skill? Certainly, but a bit of luck as well. 🙂

Kathy and myself, vouching for the target.

The target. Note the one “fly”-er on the left

Close-up. Note the splatter of bug guts

 

Conclusion

I had a great time. 32 hours of instruction on becoming a better instructor. Am I a better instructor? Time will tell as I put the learning into practice.

I recommend this class for anyone seeking to become a better firearms instructor. Note the operative word: better. Anyone can become a firearms instructor, and a lot of people are content to just get their NRA Instructor certification or their state’s handgun license certification and call it done – that’ll be the extent of their education, forever. Alas, the consuming public doesn’t always know what makes for a good instructor, but that does seem to be changing. The more we can have an informed consumer base, the better things will be for everyone. Continuing education is important, and that includes how you can become better at the job you do.

Again, what I appreciate about this class is it’s not just a nuts-and-bolts class, but one that’s big on people skills. You just don’t find (enough of) that in other places, but it’s so key to running a successful program.

Kathy kept going on about how she’s not the best marketer in the world. Maybe so, but I can tell you one thing I noticed about her was her tremendous people skills and insights into people. She groks people. She has a keen insight into human nature and adult education. You have to not only look at the things she’s directly teaching, but look at how she herself operates: how she talks with you, the other students, how she conducts herself. Yes she’s very real and very human, and so of course things weren’t perfect. But even from those things she handles herself well and there’s learning to be had. I appreciated finally getting to meet her after all these years, that we got to spend 4 days (and even a wonderful dinner) together, and that I can now officially call her one of my instructors. I look forward to what else I can learn from her, and I hope you too can have a chance to learn from her.

Catching up

I just spent an intensive 4-days in Kathy Jackson’s Cornered Cat Instructor Development Class.

I’m tired, but enriched.

I’ll have a write-up on it soon.

This also serves as my training log for today. Should be a squat day, but I’m opting to rest. I’ve got some pain in my legs. In part it’s from all the standing over the 4 days, but the large part is actually from sitting! Folding chairs, trying to remain comfortable, would extend my right leg, and between balancing it upright in my boots, my other leg crossed over it, etc., the slight hyperextension at my knee and all that “back-pressure” placed on my knee… things just aren’t too happy.

Best not to squat right now.

I’m bummed because it’s now 2 weeks in a row of not squatting (I never thought I’d say that), but it’s better this way.

Anyways, returning to the Land of Daily Routine, so I’ve got a bunch to catch up on.

2016-04-25 training log

I’m on the last leg of a long event. I’m pooped, and would rather not dig too deep a hole for myself. I didn’t want to get out of bed this morning (MOAR sleep!), but off I went. I opted to do a semi-jack-shit day: get the work, get a little extra, but don’t dig too deep.

Inclines went up, feel good. Then everything else, I did my normal routine just cut the load in half (e.g. 2 sets instead of 4, etc.). Felt good, got some work, but didn’t feel too taxed.

  • Incline Bench Press
    • bar x 10
    • 115 x 5
    • 135 x 4
    • 155 x 3
    • 185 x 2
    • 205 x 1
    • 155 x 12
    • 155 x 6
  • DB Bench Press
    • 50e x 10
    • 50e x 10
    • 50e x 10
  • Machine Flies
    • 80 x 12
  • Seated DB Press
    • 40e x 10
    • 40e x 10
  • Lat Raises
    • 20e x 10
    • 20e x 10