I didn’t want to go today.

Woke up and felt like crap. I guess I was restless all night because my throat felt like hell, my back/torso felt like crap — I mean, it was painful to try to stretch up and stand fully upright. Ugh. I wanted to crawl back in bed. I did for a few minutes, and that actually helped my back feel a little better. Then I got my stuff together and went to the gym.

I want to stop this program — I fucking hate it. I wonder if I’d like it better if I had carbs and wasn’t just out of gas the whole time, because when I think about it, it’s really not THAT bad. Yeah it’s a LOT of work, yeah it’s tough, but I’m just not having fun. Hell, in the middle of the session today I had the thought that I might try to run this program (or a similar) at least once a year, like maybe around the end of winter and other more sedentary times — to get the body back in the groove for more physical days. So I guess I don’t totally hate it.

Or at least – I’m enjoying the results.

I cannot deny my work capacity is better. Heck, I’m even feeling a little better body-wise – tho I wonder if THAT may be coming from the warm-up, adding in things like mountain climbers, jumping jacks, broad jumps. Sure I still suck at them, but I’m better each week and things are starting to feel better overall.

But still the bodyweight frustrates me. I know there’s bloat and retention, and I can see improvement in the mirror. Heck, getting suited up in my gear to go teach this past Saturday, normally those pants are a bit tighter around the waist, but things felt a little looser. And I know the scale weight isn’t everything, but still….

So whatever. I’m getting some good things out of this, and I’m sure I’ll look back on it and be thankful for doing it.

But I also can’t wait to be done with it.

5/3/1 Prep & Fat Loss Program

Bodyweight: 244
Rest Period (seconds): 70

• Press – bar x whatever
• Press – 70 x 5
• Face Pull – 65 x 25
• Press – 80 x 5
• Face Pull – 65 x 25
• Press – 105 x 5
• Split Squat – BW x 15e
• Press – 115 x 5
• Split Squat – BW x 15e
• Press – 130 x 5
• Pull-up – BW x 6
• Press – 150 x 5
• Pull-up BW x 4
• Press – 115 x 5
• Pull-up BW x 4
• Press – 115 x 5
• DB Row – 65 x 20e
• Press – 115 x 5
• DB Row – 65 x 20e
• Press – 115 x 5
• KB Swing – 40 x 25
• Press – 115 x 5
• KB Swing – 40 x 25
• KB Swing – 40 x 25
• KB Swing – 40 x 25