Today doesn’t count, because I suck.

I felt good going into today’s session, but I lost confidence as I went along. It resulted in 2 reps, but I missed depth. Not by much — maybe 1/2″, but it’s still missing depth. So, today doesn’t count.

Why? Confidence. What’s messed up is I know where I felt my sticking point and it wouldn’t have been a problem in the hole. But yet, I cut it just short out of fear. Not happy with myself.

What’s interesting is I can tell how it happened. It’s the descent. I get under the bar, set up, unrack, and as I go down I can feel when it’s in the groove and I know it’ll come up. But I can also know when it’s out of whack and it’s not going to happen. It does happen, but it’s all mental. I just throw myself off. On the 305 set I was out of groove, the 3rd rep didn’t come up easily, and it blew my confidence — “if it was hard to get 3 with 305, like he’ll I’ll get 3 with 340”.

I screwed myself.

So, I’m going to repeat this cycle; same weights.

But what I got from today? That the descent is something I need to focus on. Hard to describe here, but I know what I felt, I know what I went through, and I know that it’s something to work on. That should help.

We’ll see how things go with repeating this.

• Squats
  • bar x whatever
  • 145 x 5
  • 180 x 5
  • 215 x 3
  • 270 x 5
  • 305 x 3
  • 340 x 2
• Pause Squat
  • 270 x 3
  • 270 x 3
  • 270 x 3