A year since we’ve said goodbye

A friend pointed me to the Apple website, because 1 year ago today, Steve Jobs passed away. Apple changed their home page today to post a video (linked here, but no idea how long this link will remain, or if it’ll move to a more permanent home eventually), a tribute and remembrance of Steve Jobs.

Yeah… it choked me up a bit.

I didn’t know Steve at all, but my first computer was an Apple //e, and the day I saw a Mac… it changed my life. I’ve spent over 20 years writing Mac and now iOS software professionally, so yeah… Apple has a place in my life.

At the end of the video you hear Steve say:

It’s technology married with liberal arts, married with the humanities, that yields us the result that makes our heart sing.

That’s what people tend to not get.

Sure, iPhone is behind Android in a lot of respects. In fact, in many respects Mac has been behind the PC/Windows. But in many other respects, Apple has completely lead the way in both the desktop Mac and mobile iPhone world (and let’s not forget the music iPod world either). And the biggest leader is Apple make products people want to have, that people yearn to have. Who lines up for the midnight release of any product? What other customers find opening the box to be a religious experience? that a product, a service, a brand creates such intense devotion… to plastic and silicon?

There’s an aesthetic.

I see Android devices all day at my day job, and I just can’t like them. Same with Windows vs. Mac. Oh sure, I can totally appreciate the technology going into them, both the hardware and the OS. I think there’s actually a lot of cool stuff about Android as an OS. But it just doesn’t sing to me. It doesn’t move me. I don’t look at it as a joy that I like to look at for hours every day, which is what I have to do. If I have to stare at something for a long time, I like it to be pleasing to the eyes (like my wife), and somehow stir my soul (like my wife).

To some people, they don’t care. These things don’t matter to them. And that’s OK. To some it’s pure utilitarian, or they don’t know any different or don’t care. And that’s fine. That’s them.

Me?

Well, speaking of Steve… if you consider his background with typography and how that influenced the development of Mac. Just the other day I read about a new programmer’s font, the article mentioned a few, I downloaded and tried them out, and settled on Source Code Pro. It’s a beautiful font. It’s a lot nicer on the eyes, and when you’re staring at code all day long well… the shape and placement and count of pixels really starts to matter. And you probably don’t realize it, until you start to care and do something about it… like change it. But there’s the joy of Apple. They spend so much time fussing and caring about every little pixel, every little detail. The intent? To just work. In some respects, it should be remarkable; “Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.” But really in most respects it should be unremarkable. It should just work, it should not get in our way, it should not impede the flow of our work, it should enable and empower us… and we don’t really notice nor understand why. And even something as simple as a font can do this. Does that matter? Yes it does. And Steve knew that. Many people don’t know, don’t care, or aren’t aware… and that’s fine for them.

Not me.

Think different.

2012-10-04 workout – Wendler 5/3/1 program – cycle 14, bench press 1

I need to change up some things on the diet front.

“Week 1”

  • 5 reps – Bench Press (working max: 235#)
    • 2x5x45 (warmup)
    • 1x5x95
    • 1x5x120
    • 1x3x145
    • 1x5x155 (work)
    • 1x5x180
    • 1x5x200
  • Asst. #1 – Bench Press
    • 5 x 10/10/10/8/8 x 135
  • Asst. #2 – 1-Arm Dumbbell Rows
    • 5 x 10/10/10/10/7 x 70

The workout itself wasn’t bad. I only hit prescribed reps so I could have enough left in the tank to get thorugh the rest of the workout. But honestly, even then I don’t think I could have done many more. *sigh*

Oh, and don’t superset assistance work — saps too much energy.

On the diet front, I’m just drained. Physically and emotionally. I’ve made decent progress of about 10#, more to go. I’m wondering tho about some changes.

1. It sucks eating so little at a time. That really gets to me, because it’s not only not satisfying but it also leaves me never full and always hungry.

2. I’m still sore from Monday’s squat session. That’s not right, and directly related to the lack of food.

So I’m going to try some changes.

First, instead of 5 meals a day, go for 4. That makes each meal a bit bigger, which could help on the hunger front and making each meal a little more satisfying.

Second, I’m going back to Scooby’s Calorie Calculator and readjusting things to NOT have a 20% drop. Exactly what I’m doing isn’t in the calculator. I plugged in a bunch of different scenarios in terms of activity level, percentage reduction, etc. and have landed at about 70g protein, 70 g carbs, 15g fat per meal (4 meals). That theoretically still puts me at a deficit, but not as stark as I was before (about 45g p/c per 5 meals). That’s a big change.

I’m hoping this will still keep me in deficit and I’ll still see progress. I’m sure progress will be slower, but I’d rather have slow and tolerable progress than fast and miserable.

Plus I’m open to cycling a bit. Maybe do this for a month, then another month of heavy cutbacks. And cycle. Just find a way to make it managable… because right now, I’m miserable.

Funny thing tho. I’ve tried this for a couple days now and geez… trying to get that much protein and carbs per meal is HARD! Well, not always… give me a big steak and I’m fine. But breakfast gets kinda challenging at times.

2012-10-01 workout – Wendler 5/3/1 program, cycle 14 (mark 2), Squat 1

This diet is killing me. :-0

“Week 1”

  • 5 reps – Squat (working max: 280#)
    • 2x5x45 (warmup)
    • 1x5x115
    • 1x5x140
    • 1x3x170
    • 1x5x185 (work)
    • 1x5x215
    • 1x5x240
  • Asst. #1 – Squat
    • 3 x 10 x 135
  • Asst. #2 – Pulldown Abs
    • 3 x 12 x 120
  • Foam Rolling

There’s no question… the diet is killing me. Sapping my energy, wearing me out.

I dropped another 10# off my working max, but it’s good. I really did solid reps today on squats, better form and everything. Really worked to be solid on technique, everything tight. Felt very strange, but boy… once I put the belt on and firmed everything up, wow… 185 felt like a feather. It was kinda cool. I also worked on making every rep a single. So I wasn’t doing 1 set of 5 reps, I was doing 5 sets of 1 rep with minimal rest.

But I also just opted to not kill myself. I only did prescribed reps. And then when I did my assistance sets, only did 3… because by that point, I was running out of gas. *sigh* Yeah, I can’t wait to be off this diet.

Speaking of that, I need to pick up on my fat shedding. I did recalculate my macros, which is a start. But I also need to get back on more exercise… walking the dog every morning, etc.. Every bit helps. Maybe when I get down to 220 (4-6 weeks??? if I’m good), I might take a small break, eat normally, recoup some strength. We’ll see. One day at a time.

Workout update

If you pay attention to this sort of thing… you may have noticed the blog devoid of workout logs, be it lifting or dry fire or what have you.

I took the week off.

After this past weekend’s Medicine X EDC course, I was drained. The class wasn’t massively physically demanding, but I did haul around a 185# “Rescue Randy” dummy all weekend, it’s hot, lots of walking and moving about… and when I’m already down due to the dieting well… it doesn’t take much.

I figured at first to just take a couple days off and recoup. But then I noticed I was going to bed early every night and waking up late every morning. My body apparently craved a lot of sleep. Not 100% sure why, but my guesses are recovery from the MedX course and illness. I’m not sick, but it’s that “start of the school year petri dish” time when all kids go back to school, mix up their germs, they all get sick, bring it home to Mom & Dad, then they bring it to the office… and hooray, I’ve been around lots of coughing, hacking, sick people. I haven’t gotten sick — hooray for lots of vitamin C and ZMA — but I figure it’s something. As well, we had just enough rain that the ragweed exploded and I’m sure the allergens in the air are stressing my system too.

So just with a combination of everything, I figured this was a good “deload” week in general. Just eat my normal (reduced) diet, sleep, and recoup. I feel good.

I plan on getting back to the gym next week as usual, just starting the cycle over… no big loss.

My diet seems to be going OK. Losses feel slower now, but as long as it’s steady I’ll take it. I have readjusted my intake and macros. I did “cheat” a bit just before the MedX course because 1. I was mentally exhausted from the dieting, 2. I wanted to make sure I had enough fuel for the MedX course and didn’t have to become a patient instead of a student. Eating a bit more, and now allowing myself a little treat at the office like 1-2 Jolly Ranchers per day… hey… if it helps me keep my sanity and stay on track for the long haul, fine.

Dry fire is going to start back up. I need to construct a good backstop setup for shooting the airsoft in the house. Probably just a bunch of cardboard. TXGunGeek has a great idea where you use one of those large wardrobe packing boxes, and I like that except I don’t have a place to keep it long term.  I will also come up with a new, more practically-oriented routine given some of the things that came to light during the MedX course.

AAR – Lone Star Medics, Medicine X EDC, Sep. 22-23 2012

Medicine X EDC @ KR Training – FoF Scenario Setup

Some years ago my family and I were driving out of our subdivision and came upon a motorcycle accident. It must have happened a minute before we pulled onto the scene because there were two people down on the road, no police nor EMS, and a lot of people walking around on their mobile phones. I got out of the car to see what I could do to help, and I did… but at the time the most recent medical training I had was my old Boy Scout first aid work. Too long ago. I remembered enough to do some good, but realized how much I didn’t remember. It was sobering and motivated me to seek more medical training.

Lone Star Medics first came out to KR Training about 9 months ago (my AAR of their Dynamic First Aid is here). It was a good and eye-opening time, especially since I got to see how much I forgot and how much had changed in the “first aid” world during my learning gap.

When I learned LSM was coming back, I immediately signed up for the course. But this course was different. This course is Medicine X EDC.

Medicine X EDC

Based upon LSM’s Medicine X course, Medicine X EDC is just that – Every Day Carry. From LSM’s website:

This two-day course was developed for those that wanted to learn how to identify and treat life-threatening injuries in a gunfight; but from a civilian concealed carry perspective. If you’ve taken “Medicine X” before you’ve learned how to work from your chest rig, plate carrier, body armor, etc. Well, what about when you’re not wearing all that kit? How do you carry the contents of an IFAK without the pouch? How do we “run & gun” while in jeans and a T-shirt?

While a fair bit of the material overlaps the Dynamic First Aid course I previously took, it’s not the same sort of course. Yes some things are going to be the same, because bleeding is bleeding and a tourniquet is your first line of defense at stopping external bleeding. But there is NO harm in getting this information again because 1. maybe something changed between the last time you took a course and now (it was constantly evident that medical best practices can and do change often) 2. reinforcement through repetition is always going to help foster learning. But what really sets this course apart is the context and application.

I think Karl said it best, that a course like this really presents the full reality of what an armed-citizen confrontation can be like. So many of the classes just focus on shooting and shooting skills. Some might go further and talk about legal or present some deeper scenarios on force, but again that’s where it ends. What if your spouse was with you and got hurt? What then? Is there any addressing of that situation? Are you prepared to handle that? You carry a gun because you acknowledge the police can’t be here to help you and that at best it’ll take them 5-10 minutes to show up… the same holds for EMS. Thus, this class and the scenarios presented really help to take you through a more complete cycle that could be present in a self-defense situation.

Note that while the class was presented in a defensive shooting context, the skills hold regardless of situation. Maybe Uncle Ted got hurt while deer hunting. Maybe there was a car wreck. Bleeding is bleeding. The need to extract someone and care for someone buying them seconds until medics arrive, that’s going to hold.

Course Content

LSM Instructor Caleb Causey watches Brian Brown patching up “Rescue Randy” while an injured Paul Martin watches for bad guys.

The course was a mixture of classroom and field time. A concept would be presented in the classroom, then we’d head outside to apply it. Sometimes it might just be running through some practical drills. For example, carries and drags was just us breaking into small groups and hauling each other around, practicing the skill. Other times, it was onto the range to put things into a greater context.

Yes we did a mixture of live fire shooting and medical application. Shooting courses, however, weren’t everyone getting up on the line and shooting. Instead, everyone was some sort of a scenario. Barrels, barricades, benches would be placed. Photo-realistic targets erected, and yes lots of “no-shoots” present. And then… there was “Rescue Randy”, a full-sized heavy training dummy that we’d have to haul around. Plus, safer to have Randy downrange than anyone else. 🙂  You’d be given basic instructions, then “Gun!” and away you went. You would have to shoot through the course. Caleb would be watching and giving instructions — and throwing curve-balls. Let’s say you forgot to get behind cover, Caleb might call out that your right arm just got shot and is now out of commission. You’d have to then apply first aid to yourself, then continue with the scenario. Most would end with you applying the medical knowledge just taught… all under Caleb’s watchful eye.

Everything builds upon prior knowledge. A skill is learned, then applied in a simple scenario. Another skill is learned, then the scenario gets more difficult. The scenario may be a solo, then a pair, then a 4-man team. We even did some stuff back in the woods at the KR Training facility (that was pretty cool). Everything jacks up the pressure, jacks up the chaos and intensity. Why? Because that’s how it’s going to be. You’re going to need to perform. And here? You’re going to make mistakes, but that’s how it goes… you come to learn.

We culminated with a force-on-force scenario, using Airsoft and replicating a recent real-life situation. It put everything together and really forced you to have to think outside the box and your comfort zone. Solid stuff.

My Take-Home

There’s a lot of take-home for me: gun stuff, instructor stuff, and medical stuff.

Gun Stuff

This is pretty simple, and actually, not much to focus on.

You see, while shooting is a part of the course, it’s not the emphasis of the course. I don’t know how many rounds I shot, but certainly under 100… maybe even under 50. There’s some minor instruction on gun stuff, but really, you’re expected to know how to shoot and how to handle defensive shooting skills in a private citizen concealed carry context. Don’t look at this as a bad thing tho, because well… there’s lots of courses out there that work on the shooting side of things; you come to this class to learn how to do field medicine.

That said, under all the pressure of the day, I certainly found some things lacking.

The biggest take-home for me was realizing how in all the dry fire practice I’ve been doing, I’ve been focusing too much on basic skill work and not on “defensive shooting” skills. That is, I’m working on the draw, or the press out, but not on things like remembering to top off my magazine before reholstering. I got better at this as I went along, but still was omitting something or other.

I also kept seeing my trigger-slap problem resurfacing. *sigh* There was one point where I had forgotten to “get off the X” and was treating wounds “on the X”. Naturally, Caleb kept calling “contact front!” on me and I’d have to keep engaging. I recall him telling me I need to hit the guy… and I can only assume I was going “low left” from trigger slap. I slowed down, smooth press, heard Caleb say he was neutralized, I continued on. *sigh*

So in terms of gun stuff, my take-home was a few things:

  1. Work on my full defensive response, not just fundamental skills. But of course, make sure those fundamental skills are being worked as I go along. As well, don’t be afraid to work some medical skills and other “post-shooting” skills in (e.g. dialing 911, police contact, etc.).
  2. Continue to work on my trigger slap.
  3. Get more exposure to more weapons systems. You never know what you might have to pick up off the ground to stay in the fight.

Instructor Stuff

Caleb throws Brian a curve-ball and has Paul go unconscious — two patients for Brian.

I can’t help it. I watch other people teach so I can learn how I can improve my teaching.

I have to give Caleb a lot of credit — he’s a great teacher. He’s just got a knack for it. It’s lots of little things in terms of his presentation, his patience, his willingness to listen and give students the attention they require.

I kept finding myself falling back to my recent re-reading of How to Win Friends and Influence People, and it just seemed like Caleb knew that book and applied it. I forgot to ask him if he actually was applying techniques from the book or if it was just his natural knack, but either way, he’s really got something that separates someone that knows material from someone that can teach it. And so, it just gave me some little bits of things to try to do here and there to make myself a better instructor.

One specific item is in doing scenario work. I found myself doing the wrong thing at one point. I had started to do one thing, then Caleb said something and I started to respond to what he said. The problem? My brain processed what Caleb said as a “hint hint… you should be doing this”, and so I started doing that, but it was completely the wrong thing to do. It’s totally my fault, I should have done what I knew was the right thing to do, but brain is in monkey-mode and you often just do what you’re told instead of thinking. That’s the whole point of the exercise, and it tells me some things about how I, as an instructor, have to be aware of what I say during scenarios. My phrasing and timing, vocal intonation, word choice, it can and will mess with people. Sometimes that will be the desired effect, other times it should not. I must be judicious and mindful of what I say in terms of providing scenario details vs. “hints” about what to do to ensure I draw out the desired training lesson.

Medical Stuff

Here’s the real meat of it all.

First, it was great to get the direct medical knowledge: scene safety, carries and drags, tourniquets, patient assessment, pressure bandages, wound packing, burns, chest injuries, shock, equipment selection, talk/communication with your team or your downed buddy, etc..  All that was good stuff.

Some bigger take-homes for me?

Get off the X

This is quite consistent with what we teach in the gun-side of things: it’s better to not get shot than it is to shoot.

During the first scenario, I start to drag Randy when Caleb makes a big point about how heavy Randy is bleeding. My brain says to start applying tourniquet, and as such Caleb has me constantly getting receiving incoming fire. Eventually I get the hint and pull Randy behind cover and begin treatment. After my scene was done, Caleb made the point something to the effect that it doesn’t matter if he’s cut in half and bleeding a gusher, get off the X. Yes, sometimes you MIGHT have to treat on the X, but it’s certainly not your default mode because while he might be bleeding badly here, it’s only risking being worse out there.

Tourniquet

Tourniquet is the go-to for external bleeding. It will work. It’s the fastest thing to apply. In one scenario there was “only a little bleeding” so my brain thought to go for a pressure bandage. After I spent too much time trying to get it out of the package, you realize how a tourniquet would have been on and done with before you even got the bandage out of the bag.

Equipment only matters if you have it (on you)

Why do we carry guns on our person? Because when we need it, we need it right now and really badly. We know we won’t have time to go back into the house or to the car to get the gun, because the scene will unfold in seconds.

Why would a medical situation be any different?

Can you really go run to your car and get what you need, when it only takes a matter of seconds or short minutes to bleed out?

So what can you carry on your person?

Caleb has a good solution in terms of an ankle rig, but I don’t think that works for me because I just can’t wear long pants all year round. But I reckon I can find a way to carry a tourniquet on my belt (find a good pouch), which is better than nothing. I’m also formulating what to keep as a minimal bag in ways that I can carry a bit more gear, like in the bag I take to and from work every day. Yes, I should have picked up this gear back in January, but I feel more comfortable now with the gear and in knowing what to get and apply. And let me just say Combat Gauze is wicked expensive!

Have a Plan

You have to have a plan — and a clear cut, fully thought out plan — before you dive in. If you’re behind cover, make sure you know precisely what you will do, how you will do it, and where you’re going. For example, in the 4-man team scenario, while behind cover we should have planned out precisely who was to pick up Randy, who was to cover, how the pick-up people should have picked up and dragged Randy, where to drag him to, everything. We had some things figured out, but not all things. Chaos ensued.

Granted your plan may not pan out because a new circumstance may arise. But then it’s easier to reformulate and modify vs. having no plan at all. Plus, your plan may be able to be executed completely, which is a far lot better than having had no plan at all.

Conclusion

It was a hard weekend. Tired. Draining. Sobering because it was full of hard lessons.

I’m so glad I went through it.

This may be hard, but lacking this knowledge and finding myself wanting it while the flag is flying? That’s harder. I will always come back to that motorcycle accident and how I felt when I realized how much I had forgotten. I will always think how much better I could have handled the situation if my knowledge was fresh, if I had better equipment.

Would I take this again? Certainly. Will I encourage others to take this course? I hope if you’ve read this far you’ve been convinced of the importance of such training. Should you take it with Lone Star Medics? Why certainly. Caleb admits he’s not the only source of such knowledge and, like any good instructor, encourages us to seek out training from a wide variety of instructors. I will say if you have no training you should at least get some basic first aid — the boo-boo and bee-sting sort of stuff, because those incidents are quite common. I will say you should then go further and learn about these matters, especially if you carry a gun. I highly recommend Lone Star Medics, not just for their knowledge, but the quality of instruction and the unique approach to teaching and learning.

Big thanx to Caleb and his crew for coming out and putting on a great weekend, and to Karl for bringing Caleb back. Do look for LSM to be back on the KR Training schedule.

Paul Martin was another student in the class. Read his write-up of the weekend.

Big thanx to Brian Brown for sharing pictures he took.

Getting back into the swing…

Spent the weekend at KR Training, as a student of Lone Star Medics’ Medicine X EDC course.

A great weekend. An AAR will be written soon.

And this morning, I didn’t make it to the gym to deadlift because well… 1. I spent the whole weekend lifting and dragging a 185# training dummy, 2. I’m pooped and my body craved sleep. I’ll get back to the gym tomorrow.

Stay tuned.

Forge onwards

Got nothing.

Prepping for a weekend of learning.

Feeling run down from all the dieting.

Work is good, but just exhausting.

Haven’t had enough time with Wife and Kiddos.

Paying attention to most of the world around me, all I see is people being mean, nasty, closed-minded, bitter, harsh, “if you don’t agree with my narrow view then you are an asshole and should die a horrible death” types of attitudes.

I read Orange Goblin is going to tour the world in 2013, but it seems their only Austin show will be during SXSW… too many bands I want to see do this, and it means they won’t get much of a set nor that I’ll get to see them because I can’t justify the expense of SXSW for just one band. *sigh*

I’m just not feeling it right now.

I think it’s just a feeling of being worn out, and each feeds into the other. The diet has me running on fumes, which makes it harder to work, which leaves me more tired, which leaves me just wanting to go to bed, which means less time with the family, which bums me out, which leaves me not wanting to do anything, haven’t been taking the dog out on morning walks (which is part of my exercise), hard to want to do my own programming projects (which I’m stoked about, but I’m just pooped), and so on.  I have been thinking about taking a day or more off the diet to try to refresh myself. I just don’t want to risk regression. I’m teetering on that edge tho. I’ve caught myself starting to slack on the diet, or allow myself a little something here or there to try to take the edge off. Not good.

Still going to try to smile tho. 🙂  Forge onwards.

2012-09-20 workout – Wendler 5/3/1, cycle 14, bench press 1

There’s no question… the dieting is taking a toll.

“Week 1”

  • 5 reps – Bench Press (working max: 235#)
    • 2x5x45 (warmup)
    • 1x5x95
    • 1x5x120
    • 1x3x145
    • 1x5x155 (work)
    • 1x5x180
    • 1x8x200
  • Asst. #1 – Bench Press
    • 5 x 10/10/10/8/6 x 135
  • Asst. #2 – 1-Arm Dumbbell Rows
    • 5 x 10 x 70

I got under the bar for my last set of bench press… and I just didn’t want to do it. My brain said “I’m done”. Just true exhaustion, just totally out of gas. But, I know the brain stops before the body as a means of protection and preservation. This is the time to dig a little deeper and give a little more. I did… got 6, I’m OK with that. Plus my rest periods were shorter during assistance work, I superset the presses and rows, and I really strove for great form… slow movement, good lockout, etc.

So it’s all good, but still… I’m pooped.

I’m also happy I still hit 8 reps @ 200. That’s keeping pace. I should be able to hit 225 just fine.

But there’s no question the diet is taking a toll on me, physically and somewhat mentally/emotionally/spiritually. It just wears on you being hungry all the time, not getting the satisfaction, not having the energy you’re used to. Yes, one can learn a lot from the experience… but it’s been a month and gee, it’s tough.

I’m thinking that in a few weeks I might take a weekend and relax a bit. Not an excuse to gorge, but allow myself to eat and enjoy it a bit. Replenish myself both physically and mentally/emotionally. Instead of limiting myself to 6oz of meat, if I want that 12 oz steak I’m just going to eat it. If I want a little popcorn or chips-and-salsa while I watch a movie with the kiddos, then I will (just keep it reasonable). Have a beer. Just allow myself a little break from this. Not too long… I still want to shed, but just something to help take the edge off, y’know?

2012-09-17 workout – Wendler 5/3/1 program, cycle 14, Squat 1

Whoops! forgot to enter this back on Monday.

“Week 1”

  • 5 reps – Squat (working max: 290#)
    • 2x5x45 (warmup)
    • 1x5x115
    • 1x5x145
    • 1x3x175
    • 1x5x190 (work)
    • 1x5x220
    • 1x5x250
  • Asst. #1 – Squat
    • 3 x 10 x 135
  • Asst. #2 – Pulldown Abs
    • 3 x 10 x 110/110/120

Plain and simple.

I ran out of gas.

I wasn’t physically pooped.. my muscles didn’t feel exhausted. But I was out of gas. I just couldn’t go any more. I know part of it was mental… felt run down, felt bad about my 250 set (it was ok, but I only eeked out the required reps and fell forward enough times).

I do think the diet is getting to me.

I am down maybe 10#… maybe. At my most I was 240, and I can get on the scale in the morning and it’ll be just this side of 230. I think it’s probably more like 7-8# of loss. Not 100% sure even if it’s all real or not. I think so, I see and feel some difference.

But regardless of that, I can tell I just can’t push it. Yes, I even think I might reset more. We’ll just have to see. If the weights go down, they do. I expect that and am willing (sigh) to deal with it.

And so a workout like this? just running out of gas? I have to expect it.

I tried to think about why this was the case. I think part of it might have been true energy depletion. Over the weekend I worked at KR Training. While it’s not exhausting work, I’m still on my feet all day and walking around almost the whole time. I know that’s going to burn a few hundred more calories than normal, and I was trying to be sensitive to keeping my intake normal… and I probably even shorted myself a bit. So I think I just burned out my reserves and that was that.

I have a plan on how to deal with such weekends now. We’ll see how it goes.

Anyways…. such is how it is. 🙂

2012-09-15 live fire practice

Following TLG’s sample dry fire routine.

The routine allows for substitution of live fire for dry fire, so my “week 1 day 5” was replaced with some live fire.

I was assisting at KR Training, so I didn’t get to do much formal, but I did a few things.

Let’s just say I stunk up the joint.

*sigh*

Well, I’ll break down some things.

Before DPS1 we do a pre-test with some reactive targets. I was going to demonstrate something to a student. No prep, no forethought that I was going to do this, it just happened as the course of conversation went to say “this is what you do”, and I just drew, 1 shot on target 1, 1 shot on target 2, both reactives fell over, and that was that. There was no thought, no nothing, cold, nailed it in short order.

That made me quite happy. Of course that’s what I should do, but what got me about it was hitting it cold, no thought, no prep, no nothing. Very happy with that.

But later on, there’s this “hostage” target Karl has, where it looks like a large steel IDPA/IPSC-shaped no-shoot with a small flapper just over the shoulder… probably 4-6″ (one of these days I need to measure precisely how much is exposed). It was probably 20 yards from me. I went through 3 magazines: 1 2H, 1 SHO, 1 WHO. I thought I was doing OK because I kept listening for the distinctive “flap” sound it makes when you hit it. Then Hogel comes up and asked who shot up the no-shoot — “because I just painted it”. *sigh* Looks like it was me, having a bunch of “near target hits”, or rather, unacceptable hits on the hostage. *sigh* Looks like the flapper activated either from splatter or impact vibration. *sigh*  I was most upset with that, thinking I was doing well, but I wasn’t.

On some other steel work, I was hitting poorly. I could tell what it was: trigger slapping, plain and simple.

The bad part was, I just didn’t have enough time to shoot on my own to really work and try to diagnose the problem. To shoot as I have in dry fire. There’s still a disconnect in my head somewhere. I need to figure some things out, collect my thoughts, then go talk with Karl.