2014-08-27 training log

Just because I’m basing my program around Paul Carter’s methodologies doesn’t mean it’s the only thing involved. I reserve the right to incorporate useful things from other areas… like Jim Wendler’s notion of “Jack Shit”. 🙂

Today was one of those days.

I’ve been very stressed the past few days, and sleep’s been lacking too — bad combination. Yesterday was drag-ass out of bed earlier than usual and I did not want to, which is a strong sign of needing more sleep. Went to bed early last night, woke up later than usual this morning (another clue), and could have slept more if I hadn’t felt the obligation to keep my schedule somewhat intact for the day. But all signs pointing to: you’re overworked, get more rest.

And it was evident during the session. Squats didn’t feel heavy, just sluggish. Certainly felt like a step backwards from last week.

So I squatted, then called it. Deadlifts will take a lot out of me, and why do that if I’m already this beat-up and exhausted? I need the rest, and I don’t need to add to my stress/break-down; body needs to heal up.

Speaking of healing up, my Thera Cane arrived yesterday. Oh man… why did I wait so long to get one of these? I immediately went to work on my neck and upper trapezius and within minutes I found myself noticably looser with a better range of motion in my neck. Yes, things were that bad, but hitting all those trigger points and tight spots made an instant difference. I felt myself able to self-manipuate (i.e. “crack”) some of those upper thoracic vertebrae that I rarely can get and the relief was terrific. The ability to direct pressure exactly where you need it, angle you need it, and get the leverage needed to get in there… man, this is a great tool.

Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • Squats (model 1)
    • bar x 5
    • bar x 5
    • 145 x 5
    • 170 x 4
    • 200 x 3
    • 220 x 2
    • 250 x 1
    • 175 x 5
    • 175 x 5
    • 175 x 5
    • 175 x 5
    • 175 x 5

In personal defense, physical fitness matters

Seeing thousands of students a year in classes, one thing is clear.

Most people are out of shape. Yeah, a lot are too fat for their own good, but it’s also simple physical fitness. I see people having a hard time getting into and out of kneeling positions or getting winded just hauling their gear from the parking lot to the range. This isn’t good people.

I know. Harsh for me to say, especially about students. But the realities of personal defense tend to be pretty stark and serious, so sometimes you have to hear things you may not want to hear.

I was reading Force Science News issue 262. There was a discussion of a study done in Norway about physical fitness of police officers and the impact it had upon the physical control of suspects during arrest.

“The results of the physical capability tests are remarkable,” he told Force Science News. “These were the averages among the study subjects: bench press–235 pounds; chin-ups–15; long jump–8 feet 4 inches; time for the roughly two-mile run–11 minutes 53 seconds. The average participating officer weighed 181 pounds and stood just under 6 feet.

“In all likelihood, fewer than 10 per cent of officers upon graduating from any academy in North America would be able to match these performance standards. And from a fitness standpoint, that is when officers tend to be at their absolute peak.

“In one survey of 226 US officers with time on the job, only a minority felt they could ‘very well’ perform such relatively simple tasks as completing 21 push-ups, negotiating an agility obstacle course, performing 36 sit-ups, sitting and reaching 16 ? inches, and bench pressing their own body weight. And these tests are far less demanding that what the researchers in Norway used.

“In the study of physical exhaustion conducted by the Force Science Institute a few years ago, we found that the average officer’s pulse rate hit 180 beats per minute within 20 seconds of all-out exertion, such as would be experienced in a struggle with a resistant suspect. That represents a dramatic stressing of an officer’s physical system and capabilities.” For more about this study, go to:www.forcescience.org/fsnews/176.html .

Lewinski suggests that officers reading about the Norwegian study measure their own ability against the physical capabilities tests those researchers used, as cited earlier in this article. “The message for many officers,” he says, “will be: ‘Get to a gym! Do it now! Don’t wait!’ “

Yes, this is regarding law enforcement, and the nature of their job often requires physical contact and “wrestling” with a non-compliant subject. But it still has implications for the private citizen when it comes to your own personal defense.

How about the ability to run away? That’s certainly a great defensive tactic, but can you run? And if you can, how fast and how far can you get? Will your attacker(s) be able to catch you?

What if you had to climb over something, like a fence? Could you do it?

And what if you wound up in a physical struggle? Could you give your attacker at least some challenge? Or will you be a rag doll under their fists and boots?

Heck, if you get knocked to the ground, could you quickly and decisively get back to your feet?

I know these don’t seem like very challenging things, but I see far too many people who cannot do these things when there’s no pressure. You will not rise to the occasion and suddenly gain the skills of Brock Lesnar or Usain Bolt. This isn’t to say you have to be at their level, but I’m certainly you can be better than you are today.

Funny thing.  The same day I wrote this article, Greg Ellifritz posted a similar such article to his Facebook page (must be something in the air for us all to be writing from the same point of reference about the same topic!). I’ll address Greg’s posting in an upcoming article.

Until then, I’ll leave you with something Mark Rippetoe said:

Strong people are harder to kill than weak people, and more useful in general.

2014-08-25 training log

What surprises me about this Renaissance Periodization diet is that I’m losing weight but not strength — at least, not yet. It’s not major increases in my strength, but I’m going up a rep or two, feeling generally stronger and better each gym session. That’s not always the case on fat-loss diets. It may be just a timing factor — in 3 months it may not be the case. But for now, I’ll take it. I don’t expect to get stronger or to build muscle mass while I de-fat myself; at best I hope to just not lose any. But well, so far, so good. I’m happy with how things are going. Official weigh-in yesterday was 255 lbs.

Speaking of the diet, one thing the diet requires of me is on my “off days” to walk 1 hour (or some sort of physical activity for a while… so say all day on my feet teaching at KR Training would suffice). While I hate cardio, I’m dedicated to the de-fatting, so I do it. Thing is, while I’m not enjoying it, I think I’m going to appreciate the side-effects. That is, Jim Wendler and Paul Carter go on about how you should do SOME sort of conditioning; Prowler pushes, sled drags, tire flips, hill sprints, whatever… or at least, just walk. I can already tell my conditioning is improving in the 2-weeks of 4x week cardio. I hate the work, but I like the results. Besides, I’m finding listening to podcasts, like ITS Tactical’s Ridiculous Dialogue or Eddie Trunk’s podcast while I elliptical to be nice escapes from the day.

Today felt pretty good. I am feeling more in the groove on things. Can’t complain. Adding more reps, and generally getting stronger. Who can complain?

Oh my shoulder? It’s MUCH better now. Like I said, I have experienced this before and it’s often that something tweaked in my spine and I just need some vertebrae to “pop” and all will be better, but it’s always somewhere I can’t self-manipulate so I just have to wait, massage the muscles in the area, strecth them, etc. to help loosen them up so that things will eventually pop. And sure enough, over the weekend there was a small pop in my upper thoracic or lower cervical area. It was a small pop and I almost didn’t notice it; certainly wasn’t as dramatic a sensation and relief as usually happens. But it was it, and I’m MUCH better now. Still not 100%, but I’m over the hump. I did finally get off my duff and ordered a Thera Cane to help with the massage of that area; have wanted one for years, finally getting one.

Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • Bench Press (model 1)
    • bar x 5
    • bar x 5
    • 115 x 5
    • 130 x 4
    • 155 x 3
    • 170 x 2
    • 190 x 1
    • 170 x 8
    • 170 x 8
    • 170 x 8
    • 170 x 8
    • 170 x 5
  • Machine flies
    • 80 x 10
    • 80 x 10
    • 80 x 10
    • 80 x 10
  • Behind the Neck Press
    • 80 x 10
    • 80 x 10
    • 80 x 10
    • 80 x 10
  • Hammer Curls
    • 25e x 10
    • 25e x 10
    • 25e x 10
    • 25e x 10

2014-08-22 training log

Given last week’s shoulder injury at the hands of rowing, I opted to take today on the conservative side… just to see how things go.

My shoulder is feeling much better, but there’s still something there. It feels like there’s something in my lower cervical or upper thoracic spine that if it could just pop (knuckle crack), I’d be fine again. But given some of the tightness I still feel in my upper left trap and side of my neck, I reckon until that relaxes and elongates more, the pop won’t come. So I continue to stretch, roll, move, massage, and do other things to help in that area. It will get there.

But there is a part of me that thinks there is some injury to the area. Maybe it started years ago when I was thrown off my motorcycle and landed pretty much on that shoulder… or then all the years sleeping on mhy left side. I dunno. Something does feel properly different, but at this stage all any doctor would tell me is to take it easy and rest and let it heal — after spending thousands on an MRI and other crap. So, I’ll just continue to take it easy.

Aside from that tho, the session went alright. Opted to do regular barbell shrugs instead of Meadows shrugs, just to see how my shoulder played; didn’t like it at first, but as I went on things felt better. I am hoping that some direct work and increased blood flow to the area will be helpful for the healing.

Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • BB Rows
    • 135 x 8
    • 135 x 8
    • 135 x 8
    • 135 x 8
  • Wide, Neutral-grip Lat Pulldowns
    • 120 x 8
    • 120 x 8
    • 120 x 8
    • 120 x 8
  • Barbell Shrugs
    • 135 x 20
    • 135 x 20
    • 135 x 20
    • 135 x 20
    • 135 x 20
  • Hyperextensions
    • 10 x 10
    • 10 x 10
    • 10 x 10
    • 10 x 10
  • 2014-08-20 training log

    I can’t quantify if I’m stronger, but I am more adapted to the workload (which of course leads to strength improvements, in this case).

    Whereas last week kicked my ass, today was much better. Squats were completed with good form. After the last set of deadlifts I didn’t realize it was the last set and I was still readyt to do more. No pausing on the leg pressing. So I’d say I’ve improved in terms of adapting to the workload. So that’s good.

    Squats went well. If I’m understanding Base Building correctly, the 3 models aren’t a means of progression but rather a means of finding a model that works for you that allows you to progress. So you don’t do model 1, then 2, then 3, rather you start with 1 and if it works for you and you progress on it then just stick with it; if you see no progress, try model 2 and see if that template provides the proper stimulus to allow you to progress, etc.. So while within the model, once it gets really easy, then you stick with the model and just up the weight. How easy? Well, once it starts to feel easy, stick with it a couple more weeks — make sure you didn’t just have a 10% day, make sure you really have milked it, make sure there isn’t perhaps some progression still left in there (maybe small, but still something). If it is really solid and easy and remains so after a couple weeks, up the weight and keep going.

    So in that vein, squats I think may wind up with a bump in a month or so. The 175 5×5 is feeling really good, but I know I haven’t tapped it out yet. I probably started lighter than I was capable, if I can handle it this well so quickly. But that’s fine; better to start light and have progress.

    On deadlifts, halfway through I realized I had just been doing the movement, not applying C.A.T.. So the last 2 sets were done that way, and I just have to not forget to apply that principle to my deadlifts.

    All in all, felt alright today. Happy.

    Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

    • Squats (model 1)
      • bar x 5
      • bar x 5
      • 145 x 5
      • 170 x 4
      • 200 x 3
      • 220 x 2
      • 250 x 1
      • 175 x 5
      • 175 x 5
      • 175 x 5
      • 175 x 5
      • 175 x 5
    • Deficit Deadlift (model 1)
      • 315 x 3
      • 315 x 3
      • 315 x 3
      • 315 x 3
      • 315 x 3
    • Leg Press
      • 135 x 20
      • 135 x 20

    2014-08-18 training log

    First, diet report: down 5 lbs. in my first week.

    But that’s the thing, first week. The lack of carbs is going to cause a more dramatic initial weight loss because of water and bloat loss. How much fat did I lose? Hard to say at this point, but hopefully 1-2 lbs. of that is fat and not just bloat. Still, this is normal and “on track” for the first week.

    So far so good otherwise. I do appreciate the simplicity and flexibility of the program. Yes there are lines you have to color within, but those lines aren’t so crazy restrictive (and aren’t too far off from how I normally eat; someone that lives on Sonic, Whataburger, and prepackaged grocery store food will have a more drastic adjustment). Other programs I’ve tried had me going nuts after a week, but I’m not crazy… yet. I think this coming week will be telling, because I woke up this morning craving carbs like crazy. I did just spend the past week somewhat carb deprived, and just had 2 days in a row of no carbs, so I’m not surprised my body is saying to me “What the hell have you been doing? Feed me, damnit!”. My breakfast this morning had an apple, nectarine, 1/2 cup of oatmeal, 1 tomato (and 40g whey) and I just inhaled it. So, this week might be a little more nuts for me as my body learns to adjust, but I hope it’s like any sort of extinction burst — it gets worse before it gets better, and that I’m starting on the worse phase now and that it will in fact get better in the coming weeks.

    BTW, while I hate eating chicken breasts, I found what might become a livable solution. I can buy these 5 lbs. bags of frozen, raw, deboned chicken breasts at the store. Heat up the Weber grill to about 375Âş, throw the frozen breasts on the grill, cook for 60 minutes, done. Advantage? Much easier than trying to cook that much in the kitchen, less time consuming. I can also throw on some wood chips to smoke and add a lot of flavor to the meat. Halfway through the cooking, you turn them; so at that time I brush the breasts lightly with some olive oil and lemon juice. Yes, this turned out chicken breast meat that didn’t suck.

    Also, Tony Chachere’s creole easoning? Great seasoning, but do NOT use it as a rub. Gonna be choking down some salty-as-hell fatija meat this week too. I’m glad I opted to cook a bunch of brown rice as a primary carb source for this week — will help cut the saltiness.

    Yes, I’m trying to cook a bunch of food on Sunday, to facilitate eating the rest of the week. Never done that before, so we’ll see how it goes. But at least looking at the past week, it was sure handy.

    Enough about diet! On to the lifting.

    First, my left shoulder is still not 100% from whatever I did this past Friday. It’s MUCH better, but it’s still going to be a few days. Nevertheless, lifting today seemed fine but I was willing to can it in the name of shoulder health if needed. Thankfully that wasn’t necessary.

    The lifting itself felt good. This program is certainly an ass-kicker. I also think that doing bench work on Monday is going to be a good thing. I normally like to squat on Monday, but I think if the diet continues like it does (2 days in a row of no carbs), that squatting on Monday would be too much. I was feeling drained today, but I certainly perked up as the session progressed. I felt really good with the BHP.

    Only got one more rep, in total, in the bench work sets compared to last week. So not much progress, but progress is progress. I also felt more comfortable today with the program. So we’ll see how progress goes. Liking things so far.

    Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

    • Bench Press (model 1)
      • bar x 5
      • bar x 5
      • 115 x 5
      • 130 x 4
      • 155 x 3
      • 170 x 2
      • 190 x 1
      • 170 x 8
      • 170 x 8
      • 170 x 8
      • 170 x 7
      • 170 x 4
    • Machine Flies
      • 75 x 10
      • 75 x 10
      • 75 x 10
      • 75 x 10
    • Behind the Neck Press
      • 80 x 10
      • 80 x 10
      • 80 x 10
      • 80 x 8
    • Hammer Curls
      • 25e x 10
      • 25e x 10
      • 25e x 10
      • 25e x 8

    2014-08-15 training log

    Today hurt — in the bad way.

    On the first rep of the 3rd set of rows, I felt a sharp pain in my left shoulder. In short, it hurt a great deal, and was quite painful to do much of anything. I tried to get through the rest of the rows, but couldn’t. I thought to try pulldowns since it was a different plane of motion and while I could basically do them, I couldn’t get a full contraction without pain. Shrugs were right out. Hypers were fine, just uncomfortable in my shoulder/neck region.

    I don’t know for sure what it did, but right now I’m not considering it anything too serious. It feels like if I could just pop/crack my neck, I’d be fine. But I can’t pop it because things are tight or something is impinged. So it’s just going to take a little time to stretch everything, work through the range of motion, and eventually it will come back.

    Contributing factors? Hard to say, but right now I say a primary is probably my long nagging shoulder issues — from sleeping primarily on my left side. Last night I started on my left, felt really odd in my shoulder, then rolled over. Can’t say how much I slept on it overnight, but there we go. I think also the massive amount of tightness and soreness I’m feeling from Wednesday’s squat/deadlift session may also be a factor — everything is sore, everything is tight, including my traps. Who knows for sure.

    One good thing? my diet.

    I’m down about 3# already, but that’s primarily water/glycogen loss from the low-carb days. I also realized I was overengineering things. While the diet is provided in a very easy to follow format, I’ve been so used to counting every macro that I kept doing it. So say I’m to have “3 servings of fat”. A serving of peanut butter has 15g fat and 7g protein. What I was doing was calculating out both the fat AND the protein, so if I had 3 servings, I was calculating 21g protein there. Then I’d subtract that from the protein source I was to take in, so instead of having say 6oz of turkey I’d have like 2-3oz. Turns out, this is not the way they have the diet laid out. Yes those other things matter and are taken into account in the overall calculations — but in terms of the plan they give me, just stop overthinking it and follow it as-written. Peanut butter gets classified as “fat” and just count it against that. Quinoa has fair protein in it, but just count it as carb. Salmon has some fat, but just count it as protein. And so on. Again, it all matters and it calculated for on their end, but on my end, this is what keeps the plan simple to execute. I like that. Less minutia.

    Granted it’s not 100% cut and dry like that, but I’m starting to see where RP’s plan is going. So… onwards. This isn’t too bad so far.

    Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • BB Rows
    • 135 x 8
    • 135 x 8
    • 135 x 8
    • 135 x 7
  • Wide, Neutral-grip Lat Pulldowns
    • 120 x 8
    • 120 x 8
    • 120 x 8
    • 120 x 8
  • Meadows Shrugs
    • None. See above.
  • Hyperextensions
    • BW x 10
    • BW x 10
    • BW x 10
    • BW x 10
  • 2014-08-13 training log

    Ho-lee-wow.

    Today was tough.

    Was it because of the protocol? The diet? the lack of sleep? The minimal rest between sets? Squats and deadlifts on the same day? I mean, who knows… probably a little of all things. But wow, this is pretty killer.

    I forgot my belt, but meh — nothing here really requires it. I do want the belt to help with technique reinforcement (as that’s part of the intend behind Base Building), but not a make or break thing. Besides, I had other issues.

    The squat overwarmups were fine. Tried to ensure those were also done with CAT, tho of course as the bar got heavier you just went slower but still you tried. The 175 of course felt really light, but man… 5×5 in about 8 minutes (do a set, rest 60 seconds, repeat four more times), with a goal of trying to make the next rep more powerful and explosive and with greater bar speed than the prior rep? Oh yeah, that builds up on you. I got all the work in, but no question I started to slow down. I also found a few times that form would slip because I’d find myself “hitching” with say my butt going up but the back staying down, then I’d get through a sticking point and good morning things up. So yeah… lots of things to take note of as indication of progress over the coming weeks.

    Deadlifts? Wow. That was intense. I don’t know how much deficit I used, but it’s one of the gym’s 45# plates so maybe 1.5″? I got all the work in, but wow… that was a lot of work. No question I’ll need time to get the bar speed up.

    By then end of the deadlifts, then all the bending over to put 405# of plates away, I was knocked on my ass. Again, I strove to take no more than 60 seconds rest between all sets, so that keeps you moving and you do NOT fully recover between sets. I did NOT want to leg press, but I did. I only put a 45# plate on each side of the sled, but that was a struggle. I took numerous pauses during the sets to get a slight reprieve before pressing on.

    I’ll adjust, I’ll adapt to the workload. It will come in time. But man… wow. 🙂

    Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

    • Squats (model 1)
      • bar x 5
      • bar x 5
      • 145 x 5
      • 170 x 4
      • 200 x 3
      • 220 x 2
      • 250 x 1
      • 175 x 5
      • 175 x 5
      • 175 x 5
      • 175 x 5
      • 175 x 5
    • Deficit (45# plate) Deadlift (model 1)
      • 315 x 3
      • 315 x 3
      • 315 x 3
      • 315 x 3
      • 315 x 3
    • Leg Press
      • 135 x 20
      • 135 x 20

    2014-08-11 training log

    Today starts a radically different approach. First, I’ve officially begun my Renaissance Periodization-based weight-loss diet. I started yesteday, actually. So far so good. A few comments on the diet.

    First, the diet truly is nothing new in terms of information. If you’ve been paying attention to all the emerging research and much of the established research on weight loss, carb cycling, macro levels, nutrient timing, etc. it’s nothing new, just logically organized and laid out in a manner that’s easier to consume. I think for me that’s the big help here — having someone that knows to help me sift through the mountains of conflicting information out there. Someone that can show me what I need, not just generalized explanations and I can’t quiet dial it in for what I need. I mean, you can book learn and self-teach yourself tons of stuff, but there’s distinct advantages to having a teacher/mentor/coach, and that’s really what I see this as being for me.

    Perhaps it’s like why I liked 5/3/1 so much. There are principles, but it starts out with Jim saying “here, just shut up and do Boring-But-Big for 6 months; don’t ask questions, don’t think too much, just shut up and follow this template as-written”. You do that, you get results, and you start to understand the principles. Happened in my martial arts past: just shut up, do these techniques, we’ll talk about principles, and you’ll come to better understand the principles as you do them. So I’ve gotten a lot of “principles” in my nutrition education, but now I just need someone to say “shut up and do this, and you’ll see how the principles work”.

    As well, I can eat fruit. 🙂 That’s huge. Sure, there are things you just can’t eat, and other things you have only only eat at certain times in certain portions. But one contributor to past failure is being so restrictive that eventually I just crack. Being able to eat fruit and have some satisfaction of “sweet” on my palette is important to me.

    Speaking of sweet…

    So I’m to have peri-workout nutrition. Of the list of suggested carb sources, I opted to try Kool-Aid. I think the last time I drank Kool-Aid was as a kid, and I figured hey, this is a way to have a little fun, right? Oh dear lord… it was horrible. 🙂 I mean, it’s all really sugar and fructose, but it’s the flavoring — it’s designed for that “kid sweet” palette, and I’m so far away from that it was just horrible to choke down. 🙂 I’ll finish the small jug I bought, but I’m going to look for other options, maybe just settling on powdered Gatorade or occasionally fruit juices (since they’re expensive).

    So, about the lifting.

    I’m starting Paul Carter’s Base Building. Why? Because I think it will be suitable for what I’m doing. I cannot go on a strength-building program because I’m working to lose fat. I need to focus on things to help build/preserve mass. BB I think will help me work at lower intensities, more reps, and mitigate the diet. Plus, Paul even says it’s good for a diet because you can better relgulate (e.g. just adjust the weights and keep going).

    I kept the rest periods short, about 1 minute between every set. Keep things working, keep things pumping.

    I am starting all things in the “phase 1” state of Base Building, and I’m sure I’ll be here a while, which is fine. I could tell by the 3rd work set that my bar speed was slowing and moving every rep explosively wasn’t quite happening. Then of course I started to lose reps. But that’s fine, Paul says it’s rare that someone will start out and be able to finish it; it comes in time.

    On assistance movements, I’m trying to look at them more bodybuilding-style, trying to really think about the muscle, isolate and contract the muscle to move the weight, about a 2-1-2 type of tempo with a little squeeze at the peak and controlling and focus all the way up and down. Again, thinking about mass.

    If BB doesn’t work out for me over time, I’ll switch to a more body-building-style approach. We’ll just take it as it comes.

    One note on the curls. There was a Flex magazine at the gym a couple weeks ago and I forget who did this, some top Olympia bodybuilder (Kai Greene?), but he said he did DB curls in 5’s. So one arm for 5 reps, then the other arm for 5, then back to the first arm for 5, then the other for 5. That’s 1 set of 10. He said he did it this way because he got more focus on the one arm, but then a little longer rest (vs. alternating every rep). I thought I’d try it, and I dig it. So I’ll be doing my curls that way to see if it does anything useful… if nothing else, it cuts out the boredom.

    All in all, I’m excited about where things are going.

    Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

    • Bench Press (model 1)
      • bar x 5
      • bar x 5
      • 115 x 5
      • 130 x 4
      • 155 x 3
      • 170 x 2
      • 190 x 1
      • 170 x 8
      • 170 x 8
      • 170 x 8
      • 170 x 6
      • 170 x 4
    • Pec Deck
      • 70 x 10
      • 70 x 10
      • 70 x 10
      • 70 x 10
    • Behind the Neck Press
      • 75 x 10
      • 75 x 10
      • 75 x 10
      • 75 x 10
    • Hammer Curls
      • 25e x 10
      • 25e x 10
      • 25e x 10
      • 25e x 8

    Getting back on the losing train

    The goal for 2014 was to be less fat. Check that, it still is to be less fat.

    I’ve tried to go down this road numerous times, with varying degrees of success — but really, it’s all failure because I haven’t STAYED there. In fact, right now I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been: 265# (more or less). I don’t know my precise bodyfat measure, but if you Google around for body fat estimation pictures, I’m at least 30% body fat. Let’s do some math. That means I’m 185# at 0% body fat, which is unrealistic but it’s math good to know because assuming I maintain that lean body mass, then a 15% bodyfat would be about 215 pounds. 15% body fat is a good goal for me to start with and folks… that’s a 50# difference.

    Put it this way. You go to the gym, and those big plates? The 45# plates? Lug one of those around for a while… I’m wanting to lose a little more than that. I have a little more than that just sitting on my body, weighing me down, stressing my body, my joints, and everything. And that, to me, just sucks. I also get stupid and think about how if I do decide to compete in powerlifting, that’s dropping down 2 weight classes (vs. being in the 275# class when I’m not a guy lugging around 275# worth of muscle). So yeah, I’m tired of it.

    I’m tired of being fat. I’m tired of all the downsides it brings. I don’t want a flat stomach because “abz” aren’t a priority, but I do want the ability to carry things on the front of my belt, like AIWB. I want my clothing to not fit me because of muscle, not fat. Yeah, there’s vanity. But there’s also a desire to accept that my 40-something body is only getting older, going to fall apart more, and I have to change a lot of habits to help me manage this “over the hill” thing so I can still kick ass when I’m 70 years old, like Sonny:

    The diet has always been my struggle. I eat to manage stress, to find comfort, escape, joy, whatever. All the things I’ve tried, I can manage somewhat, but there’s always some piece of the puzzle I’m missing. I’ve come to accept I cannot do this alone, and that having a coach, someone to direct me, to kick my ass when I need it, to be there to answer questions — well, I stress the value and importance of this in every other aspect of life, so why should it be any different here? It may not work, but at this point, it’s well worth trying.

    As I’ve mentioned in some prior posts, I’m trying out the guys at Renaissance Periodization. At this point I’m doing a 6-month plan with them. I’ll talk more about this as I go along, because it’s going to be a journey. But so far, it seems like a lot of stuff I already knew, just well-structured and in a manner that I think should be more consumable with less information overload. We’ll see how it goes.

    The other thing is how my lifting will go.

    Since the primary goal is fat loss, I know that strength and muscle mass will be lost as well. I want to minimize this, so it seems the best recommended path for me to take is one that builds muscle mass. While a strict bodybuilder approach isn’t what I want right now, because strength is still more important to me, that philosophy is certainly there. So, I’m going to give Paul Carter’s Basebuilding a go. Philosophically it seems the right thing to do. I don’t know how well it will work on the restricted diet, but then I’m willing to adjust and adapt as I go along. I believe I read somewhere that Paul said BBing works out well in a diet phase since you can just adjust your weights (downward) and keep going. I just have to remind myself that the key isn’t to focus on the numeric value of the weight as much as it is ensuring I work to preserve strength and muscle mass. It’s the work I do, not the weight I lift.

    The other thing? I have to do cardio. 3x a week I’m in the gym lifting. On my non-lifting days, I have to walk for an hour. That’s part of RP’s plan. Ugh…. not my favorite thing to do. But, I will say for a while there I kinda dealt with it because I listened to podcasts while I was walking and I kinda miss listening to them. So this will be useful. I may try just simple reading too as my reading list is backing up.

    RP wants a semi-weekly weigh-in, so the plan is to weigh myself on Sunday and Wednesday. I will also take periodic pictures, probably just on Sunday. I debate posting the pictures. Part of me doesn’t want to because I’m sure you don’t want to see me half-naked, nor do I feel like sharing my half-naked self with the world. But I think about it — that’s in part because I do not like how I look. But 50# from now? Yeah, I’m sure I’ll like it more and be kinda happy to run around with my shirt off. So I dunno… part of me thinks that the public shaming and accountability it would create for myself would be good for me. Plus, look at a guy like John Stone and his pictures. If that’s not some level of inspiration…

    So… here we go…. voyaging down this road again.