Frustration is where I’m at right now.
*sigh*
I haven’t been losing. I’ve been eating an unpleasant, unsatisfying diet. Not that CarbNite Solution is a shitty program, but rather I’ve got to force myself to eat particular things, and mostly not eat a lot of particular things. And the shit is getting old.
I could deal with it if I was seeing progress, but I’m not.
I was, but even then it was an unsteady progress.
I know my strength will go down. I know I’ll lose a bit of muscle mass. And I can live with that, if I also see myself losing the flab.
But I’m not.
One thing may have been a reduction in activity, due to my ankle injury. Thankfully that’s healing pretty well (probably a few more weeks before I’m ready to really get back to working hard with it), and I am ramping things up. And finding things like kettlebell swings I hope will be helping me too. I’m going to keep working my way up with those and try to jack up the intensity even further. I hate slow “steady state” cardio, so it’s gotta be HIIT-style stuff. I’ll get there. Rome wasn’t built in a day, and I didn’t get this gut overnight either.
I know all of this. I’m dedicated to shedding this flab, and I won’t give up even tho I’m frustrated as hell.
But when things aren’t working, you can’t keep doing the same thing. You have to change something.
Right now the best I can think of? I’m eating too much. I overestimated what I needed and/or started eating too much because I was trying to follow the vague protocols outlined in these dietary programs, but I just need to adjust it more downwards for me. I sit behind a computer all day, I’m getting older, etc. and so I probably need more adjustment.
I did a little math. I may not remember the exact numbers here, but you should get the point.
A popular CarbNite thing to do is have morning coffee with cream. The intent of the cream gives you fat, but also helps you stave off hunger. I am not a coffee drinker, but I started drinking it just because of the protocol. I also was having a steady stream of breakfast as 6 scrambled eggs and 2-3 of these Purnell’s Old Folks Sausage. I mean, gotta have fat, right? Well, in doing this I discovered a few things: 1. overall my macros profile did seem to be about right for the whole day, but it was very front-loaded on the fat (as you can see); 2. that’s a lot of fat.
Here’s where it started to dawn on me.
One of those sausage patties? like 110 calories. 10g of fat, 4g protein. Multiply that by 3. The cream? I don’t recall the exact values I was using, but there was like 5-10g of fat in the cream I was using. And the eggs…. 30g fat. When you do the math, sure that gets the fat I’m supposedly supposed to get, but it’s still a lot of calories.
I made a small change. I went to 1 sausage patty, skip the coffee, and now have 3 whole eggs and 3 whites. That dropped me like 450 calories right there!
Now granted, fat is important to consume on keto-style diets. But the problem I keep reading is, no one tells you how much. It’s all rather vague (probably good from a liability and legal standpoint; but not so useful to the dieter). But look right there. I bought into the “eat fat” and boom… that’s a damn lot of fat. Because in many respects, calories in calories out still matters.
So this is what I’m doing, cleaning things up. It’s too soon to say if it’s made any difference, but it’s the change I’m making.
I think another thing I have to accept is something I read from Paul Carter. That you just have to accept you will be hungry. Deal with it. So many of the “low/no-carb” guys talk about eating to control hunger, but I think given my past history, that may have been part of the mistake. I just have to deal with being hungry at times.
But to help me further?
I got the MyFitnessPal app and am going to track all my eating with it. I’m not really thrilled to do it. It feels weird, wrong, unnatural. I should just eat, not keep tedious records of all my eating. But, if it’s going to help. if it’s going to keep me on track, and ensure I don’t slowly creep up, things don’t creep in, and that I just keep things managed well…. that’s good. And if it also helps me remember to keep adjusting downwards as I drop weight well, that’s good too.
So, this is what I will try now and see where it gets me.
Fingers crossed.