Looking for a new flashlight — do you have any input?

For many years I’ve carried a SureFire E2L Outdoorsman. It’s part of my every-day-carry, and in fact I use it almost every day. It’s because of that daily utility that I chose that particular model of flashlight.

However, over the past year I’ve started to have a change of heart. Many new flashlights have come to market, and over the years of carrying I’ve started to find myself wanting… a little more, a little different. And probably too much time hanging out with TXGunGeek, who is also a big flashlight geek.

What’s my beef with my E2L?

  • High-beam output. While my E2L’s high beam is pretty good, there’s better out there now. I’ve found myself in enough situations where I wished for more light.
  • Beam quality. I don’t know how to describe it, but the high beam feels… fuzzy. Maybe it’s my (aging) eyes, but compared to some other flashlights I have, there’s something about the light quality that just doesn’t provide me with the best picture. It’s certainly good enough for most things, but if I can have a little better, since again, my eyes are getting older and anything I can do to help out is A Good Thing™.
  • High first, low second. There’s no question I want dual-output because much of my every-day light needs require a low-beam. Originally I wanted the low-beam to come on first since I figured most of my needs were mundane and didn’t need to blind myself. Now I want the high beam to come on first, because I find myself in more situations where I need a lot of light right now and don’t need to waste time clicking through beam modes. I decided if I needed low beam mode, it would likely not be a “need it immediately” need and I could do something like press the flashlight into my stomach or leg to suppress throwing light, click through to low, then there we go. Besides, when you need a lot of light right now, you need it now and need to be able to just slam the light on and get the light. Yeah I tried many times to just get used to “half click, release, full click” to get as quick as I could over the low mode and locked into the high mode or doing 2 full clicks, but it’s just too error prone, too time consuming, and too loud.

So it’s not much, but it’s enough to motivate me to look for alternatives.

But on that token, some things I would prefer to not give up:

  • Clip. The clip is very useful, especially since I can hang it off the brim of my hat for hands-free use. That means the clip needs to attach near the head and point back towards the tailcap (like the E2L has). So many flashlights have the clip attach at the tail and run towards the head, which can be good for keeping the flashlight in your pocket, but isn’t very usable during use.
  • Dual mode. I need high and low beam. Strobe? Oh please… no.
  • Size. I like the E2L’s size. First, because it means 2 batteries instead of 1 thus more runtime. Second, the diameter feels good in my hands in terms of being able to hold a grip and not lose the flashlight in my hand.

And then there’s one thing I flat out do not want: strobe. This ain’t no party, this ain’t no disco. I do not need nor want strobe. I do not want to waste time clicking through a mode that I don’t need, that all too often will accidentally fire because I’m trying to click through to the mode past it. If someone can tell me how strobe is actually useful, please comment. In the dark, it just screws up YOUR vision too, and again it’s too many modes to click through to get it. Enough Low Light shooting classes and strobe never comes up as useful.  But, I will admit I recently found a use for it. While taking Kiddos around the neighborhood this past Halloween for trick-or-treating, I carried a Streamlight Super Tac-X because low beam is good for close-up work (e.g. picking up dropped candy); the high beam is bright, crisp, clean, lots of throw, lots of spread, really lights things up which can be useful when walking around in the dark and well-behind a group of kids that might need some illumination in front of them (throw!). And then… yes… strobe was useful when we would cross the street. I would aim it down at the pavement and let it blink, and saw more than enough cars react to the flashing strobe (vs. other times when I’ve used a plain beam) and slow down. So yeah, THAT was useful. But for my EDC flashlight? No strobe.

There’s no question the awesomeness of Fenix Lights, especially that they have such great output, quality, and runtime on ubiquitous AA batteries, all at such a low price. The Fenix lights I presently have are great.  Because of them, SureFire and Streamlight have had to pick up their game. So lots of new and interesting stuff out there. I focused on these 3 companies. I did look at some others, but they either were no longer in business or their lights could all be eliminated from consideration because they had features I didn’t want (e.g. Blackhawk, NovaTac, Pelican).

Streamlight didn’t have anything that would fit my bill. Mostly lost out on the clip front. In fact, on the clip front alone I pretty much eliminated most every flashlight out there. *sigh* The two I found were:

Fenix LD22 (S2)

SureFire E2D LED Defender

The Fenix has a lot of win all around. Many different modes/levels of light output. Cree LED’s. A tailcap switch, but also a side button; so yes, that means there is a strobe mode but at least it’s not part of the tailcap. There’s a clip, but I’m mixed on the fact it’s removable. Sure that’s cool from a sales standpoint, because they can sell it to more people. And I kinda like that if the clip snagged on something it would just break away instead of bend (how many times have I bent my Spyderco Delica clips because of a snag?). But… that also means it can break away, which may not be what I want. I’m unsure about the clip. I think tho the bigger concern is while it’s cool it remembers the last output setting and uses that next time you turn it on, that means if the last thing I did was read a map but RIGHT NOW I need a lot of light, I won’t get it. The Fenix looks good in so many regards, but I’m not sure it will win the “tactical need” test. But it’s only like $60, so I might pick one up anyways because I could see a lot of use for this in other contexts, like camping or hunting.

The SureFire E2D. Funny how things happen. My only beef with this? The fact it looks aggressive. Of course, that’s the point of the “Defender” models, and I’m honestly not bothered by it myself. But as I wrote in my old “why I like the E2L” article I specifically avoided that light for its looks. At the time I was active in Boy Scouts and a lot of parents there did not “get it” and would freak out at the thought, and I just didn’t need the grief. As well, I flew and didn’t want to have some TSA goon take my $150 flashlight. But these days? I don’t fly. I don’t do BSA, and operate my life in a different context. Besides, I’ll still have my E2L in storage and can always pull it out and use it if context changes.

So yes, presently I’m leaning towards the E2D. I even emailed Comp-Tac to see if their flashlight holster for the E2L works for the E2D.

What’s your input?

13-Nov-2012 Update: Comp-Tac replied:

From what I can tell the e2d and e2l have the same bezel diameter. However, the e2d has that crenellated bezel, which adds to the length a small amount.
I would feel comfortable in saying that it would work.

So I figure if I go with the E2D, I’ll get it, try it, and hope for the best. If I do have to buy a new pouch, I reckon the existing one would work well enough until the new pouch arrived.

 

What we (programmers) want

I’ve poked at computers for decades… yes, I’m dating and aging myself.

And programming always appealed to me. I guess it’s been my craft, my calling. I’ve had opportunities to move into management, but I refuse because I know what I’m good at and what I love (and that I don’t like being a paper-pusher). For example, right now I’m working on one of the more challenging programming tasks I’ve dealt with in a very long time. It’s very complex, very complicated, very frustrating. But because it’s such a huge challenge (and will be a HUGE win when I pull it off), I’m happy to let it engulf me. Part of my poor sleep this past week has been due to Daylight Saving Time throwing me off, but also because the moment I wake up my brain churns on this problem because well… it’s just what I find exciting. Geek that I am.

Over my years, over my jobs, my bosses, my companies, the projects and groups… I’ve learned what I want and don’t want. Geeks do tick differently, and we aren’t satisfied by the same things a lot of other officer workers are. It’s welcome when the company and bosses get it, and frustrating when those that “run you” don’t get it. I don’t expect people to bend to my way of being, but I can say if you can understand folks better, you tend to get further.

This article by Michael O’Church about “What Programmers Want” is insightful and pretty spot-on about us.

If you have to manage geeks or interact with them, take the time to read it and gain some insight into us.

Or if you just want to understand us geeks a little better, it’s worth your time too.

2012-11-08 workout – Wendler 5/3/1 program, cycle 14, Press 3

Tying a PR isn’t as good as setting a PR, but at least I’m stopping the regression.

“Week 3”

  • 5/3/1 – Press (working max: 160#)
    • 2x5x45 (warmup)
    • 1x5x65
    • 1x5x80
    • 1x3x95
    • 1x5x120 (work)
    • 1x3x140
    • 1x3x155 (PR-tie)
  • Asst. #1 – Press
    • 5 x 10/10/10/8/10 x 80/80/80/80/65
  • Asst. #1 – Wide, pronated grip lat pulldowns
    • 5 x 10/10/10/10/12 x 110/110/110/110/90
  • Upright rows superset with tricep pressdowns superset with barbell curls
    • 3 sets, 12-15 reps per set, then on the last set drop down weight and keep cranking to failure

I was hoping to get 4 reps and set a true PR, but it just didn’t happen. On rep 2 I started to lose my balance… and recovery from that kinda sucked things out of me. I went for 4… it just wouldn’t go up. Racked, rested for 15 seconds, tried again, no go. Oh well. At least I feel like I’ve stopped regressing. 🙂

One thing that was different — I was squeezing the hell out of the bar. I know I’m supposed to do this, but I just forget things… so many things to remember to do. But boy, that sure does make everything else tighten up, and the weight felt different… better, more like my musculature was supporting the weight and not my skeletal structure. Felt cool. That might have sapped a bit out of me too, and I’m fine with that. Any time I can improve my technique I’m happier.

I also started to blend into my workout changes… really focusing on the eccentric, being sure to get high reps and being exhausted by the time I got to the end… working to “rep out” but still relatively heavy weights. Then I did a superset of stuff at the end, not exactly counting reps… I did to ensure I got into the range but didn’t bother recording as long as I hit the range I was happy. Just work it, pump it…. felt good.

Looking forward to starting the next cycle and seeing where these changes take me.

Also happy to be walking again as a part of my program. Feels good.

2012-11-05 workout – Wendler 5/3/1 program, cycle 14, deadlift 3

Nothing like a little motivation.

“Week 3”

  • 5/3/1 – Deadlift (working max: 335#)
    • 1x5x135 (warmup)
    • 1x5x170
    • 1x3x205
    • 1x5x255 (work)
    • 1x3x290
    • 1x5x320
  • Asst. #1 – Deadlift
    • 1 x 5 x 275
    • 1 x 5 x 225
    • 1 x 5 x 185
    • 1 x 5 x 135
    • 1 x 10 x 135
  • Foam Rolling

It feels good to feel stronger again. I’m still not at the levels I was, plus I did reset because my deadlift form has changed a bit. But all feels good and I just felt good pulling today.

Given my recent thoughts about lifting and revamping my approaches, I opted to try stripping down. Instead of 5×10 across with some light weight, let’s just strip down by 45’s and 25’s, pulling 5 reps, resting about 60-90 seconds between sets… and the last set I repped out.

It felt good. It helped me feel good about the this new approach. I’m solidifying my workout plan for the next some cycles to see how they’ll fare for me.

The thing is tho… I drove to the gym because of my ankle. While driving home my posterior chain started to hate life, so as soon as I pulled into the driveway I took a walk around the block just to cool down. That helped me ease back in, plus I can tell that my ankle is about as good as it’s going to get. I’ll wear my really good running shoes, and I’m going to get back on the wagon with walking. Once I’m feeling better there, I hope to start pulling the sled again.

Life’s good.

Workout reassessment

If you come here for the not-workout articles, leave now. 🙂  If you read the workout stuff, read on.

So my primary goal has been trying to shed the fat. I managed to drop 10# and plateaued. The fat loss work was driving me crazy. Too little to eat, stress of job and life, and it just drove me batty. I tried various adjustments of diet and plan to make it a little more manageable. For example, instead of spreading it out over 5 meals, try 4, or try 3. That helped to a degree, because I could have a meal and feel better in that meal… felt more satisfied, not so much like I was denying myself.

Still, I stagnated. I probably needed to drop my calories even more. But I am really hating that because I’m losing too much strength. My workouts are becoming less fun. But I am liking my switch back to a simpler workout program, basically the Wendler 5/3/1 program Boring But Big template. I cannot deny how much I like that program.

I also opted to start to find a different route to caloric and thus flab-reduction goals. I learned that I do need carbs to some extent. I cannot cut them out like I was doing when I was striving to be paleo — my body just won’t function well without some carbs. By my carb choices have changed a lot, settling on things like Ezekiel bread and brown rice, maybe some more carb-heavy veggies like squashes and whatever comes in our CSA box. I’m still toying with my macros, and currently leaning towards something like 1.0 to 1.5 grams of protein per pound of bodyweight, and then maybe 0.5 or so grams of carbs per pound with fats being as minimal as possible but not sweating it too much. Basically, keep protein high and carbs low, giving me what I need to get through but no more. I’m still working to find where that exact balance is.

Then I want to change up my workout.

I’m going to stick primarily with Wendler 5/3/1 and BBB, but I’m thinking about some minor modifications. I’ve been reading a lot about powerbuilding, with guys like Josh Bryant and Metroflex. Trouble is, I’m trying to glean principles — what is it that makes it not powerlifting, not bodybuilding, but this new thing “powerbuilding”. Well, it’s not really new… but just like with 5/3/1 you can look at a lot of specifics but also fall back to see what Jim’s guiding principles are, I’ve been trying to glean out some principles in powerbuilding. I may not be on the exact right course, but I have some ideas of things I’d like to try throwing in.

One thing I’m thinking about is changing the movement assistance work. That is, BBB says to take your main lift, drop the weight to 50-60%, then go 5×10 across. Well, when you do that, if you want rep 10 of set 5 to be tough then rep 10 of set 1 is pretty easy. Or if you make rep 10 of set 1 really easy, then it’s tough to get all 10 reps out of set 5. Well, what if instead every set and every rep was tough to get 10 reps? The way to do that is vary the weight. So set 1 uses X amount of weight, and set 5 uses Y, with Y < X. In essense, you’re doing drop sets, or rest-pause, just that the rest might be a little longer (60-90 seconds).

Another thing is what I just did on the bench press 14-3 workout, throwing in some “pump sets” at the end. In that workout I did all my work, then did a set of flies with light weight and high reps to failure; immediately followed by rope-handle triceps pushdowns with light weight high reps to failure, dropping the weight, and continuing to failure; immediately followed by barbell curls with light weight and high reps to failure, dropping the weight and continuing to failure. Basically, just get a pump. I didn’t do much this first workout because I knew doing just a little bit would be enough to make me sore… work up to more sets of this.

Exactly what I’ll do, I’m not sure. But basically I want to lift more… heavier, more reps, more volume. Keep 5/3/1 for a core strength foundation, but do a little more work to get me pumped both in terms of muscle growth and my heart rate. I’m continuing to pour over the powerbuilding documents that I can find, to see what I can glean.

As an interesting aside… one thing I opted to get back to doing is pull-up/chin-up work. I considered buying a set of bands to assist me, but while searching around I stumbled upon this video from Scooby:

I might see about adding that in. I’ve read all the various ways to get your chin-up reps up, but stagnated in my progress. He’s laying out a nice progression here using all those same sorts of steps (negatives, holds, assistance, etc.), so it seems like a program worth trying. I’d probably start with his step 3 or 4. Not sure where or how I’d work this in, but it does fit nicely with my 2x week workout.

The other thing I need to do is get back to conditioning work. My ankle is just going to be what it’s going to be. Oddly, the more I’m getting back on it, the better it feels. It actually makes sense, and as long as I’m careful about it I should be OK. I’ll probably start out just doing some brisk walks. Once things are really feeling better, I hope to get back to dragging that tire sled.

I’m hoping these things will help me get closer to my goals. Yeah, I won’t shed the fat as fast, but you know what? If it takes me 6-9 months, if I’m working hard, if I’m feeling good, then so what? I can live with that. Hell… if it basically allows me to drop 1-2# a week and not be miserable, still feel like I’m making progress in all desired areas… heck, I’ll be OK with that sort of results. I’d rather be in this for the long haul.

I’ve got a bunch to still think about in terms of exactly how to mesh this all together, but these are the thoughts going through my head right now.

2012-11-01 workout – Wendler 5/3/1 program, cycle 14, bench press 3

Today wasn’t just setting a PR, it was achieving a milestone.

“Week 3”

  • 5/3/1 – Bench Press (working max: 235#)
    • 2x5x45 (warmup)
    • 1x5x95
    • 1x5x120
    • 1x3x145
    • 1x5x180 (work)
    • 1x3x200
    • 1x3x225 (PR)
  • Asst. #1 – Bench Press
    • 5 x 10/10/10/10/6 x 135
  • Asst. #2 – 1-Arm Dumbbell Rows
    • 5 x 10 x 60
  • Then I grabbed a set of light dumbbells and did a set of flies to failure. Then a set of triceps rope-handle pushdowns to failure, drop weight, continue to failure again. Then grabbed a barbell and did curls to failure, drop weight, continue to failure. Pump, baby.

Today wasn’t just a PR, it was a milestone.

I’ve NEVER bench pressed 225 in my life. 225 is a milestone because that means you’ve got 2 45# plates on each side of the barbell: 135, 225, 315, 405, 495, 585, etc.. are the “round numbers” of weightlifting. I’ve been long looking forward to hitting this milestone and finally did it after much setback.

Gym owner was spotting me… said I probably could have gotten 5, but I was happy with 1. I was totally distracted. He was standing over me, very close, totally in my field of view, and it distracted me far more than I thought it would. So I was thinking more about him than the bar path, the weight, etc.. He was doing the right things spotting, it just threw me more than I expected so I figured 3 was good enough lest I risk hurting myself. There’s more reps to do later. 🙂

And doing the final little pump set? Well… I’ll have to write about my recent rethinkings. That’s coming once I have time to write.

In terms of next big milestones, I’m looking forward to 315# squat, 405# deadlift, 185# press… and the 1000# club. It’ll be some time before I get to those, but every day is progress in some way. Of course, the next little milestone is just another 5#, another rep, doing better than I did before.

The unwritten rules of Halloween

Putting on my Old Man hat for a moment….

Taking two-thirds of Kiddos around for Trick-or-Treating last night and gee… have manners totally died?

Granted, it wasn’t across the board, but I did see lots of people just barging around, not waiting their turn, not saying “thank you”, being greedy rude little fucks.

And that was just the adults.

*sigh*

I know Halloween etiquette isn’t written down anywhere, but it seems to be understood that porch light on means “someone’s here, candy available, come knock”. Porch light off means “no candy, don’t knock, keep moving”.  That you wait your turn, letting the group already at the door finish up and allowing them to exit (since many doorways are narrow) before you go in for your turn. That you don’t ask for the candy, or for another piece; you get what you are given and you say “thank you” (even if it’s a pencil, a box of raisins, or a penny). That you don’t half-ass it: that you make some sort of effort with the costume, with the evening, and not just wandering around trolling for free candy.

But all these unwritten rules of Halloween seem like they might be dying and being lost.

Or… I’m just getting old, and more crotchety than I was yesterday. 🙂

Oh… and don’t trample on my lawn and through my garden! Use the walkway!

2012-10-29 workout – Wendler 5/3/1 program, cycle 14, squat 3

Better.

“Week 3”

  • 5/3/1 – Squat (working max: 280#)
    • 2x5x45 (warmup)
    • 1x5x115
    • 1x5x140
    • 1x3x170
    • 1x5x215 (work)
    • 1x3x240
    • 1x1x270
  • Asst. #1 – Squat
    • 5 x 10 x 135/135/135/115/95
  • Asst. #2 – Pulldown abs
    • 5 x 10 x 120
  • Foam Rolling

I’ve found that balance is a key part to success in life in all areas of life. Regarding working out, I’ve swung pretty far one way, then the diet hit and I swung pretty far the other way. Now I think I’m trying to find my balance. But you have to go to the extremes in order to know where middle could even be.

I’m tired of the dieting… it’s killing me mentally. Not just the diet itself, but I really hate that I can’t lift properly. Yes I know about the long term goals and the sacrifices to get there. I’m just experimenting and learning. And so with that well… I’ll write more about these details later.

The squats went well. Yes I only did a single on my max weight… I started to come up out of the hole, it was ugly, and I refused to go any further. I’ve been very pleased with my improvement in form and technique, so why struggle around just to heave the weight, y’know? I am not going to go up in squat weight this next cycle… keep it the same, keep the form tight, and go up on reps. So hey… get 2-3 reps next cycle, great. I’m just finding with my fixed form that well… I suck. 🙂 That certain muscles were lagging because of how my prior form was. So they just have to get brought up and that’s all fine.

But hey… I ensured I did a lot of reps (more on this later) and my legs are jelly. So that’s all good. My ankle is still unhappy, but the rest of my legs are in that good hurt happy. 🙂

Senior Engineer

John Allspaw writes “On Being a Senior Engineer“.

In my long career, I’ve met lots of people with the title “senior engineer”. We’d joke and call them “señior engineer” because it was all too often thrown around as some title of arrogance or tenure, but was about as meaningful as a “perfect attendance” award  — sure it’s great that you showed up and have been here a while, but that didn’t mean you knew anything.

Or were mature enough.

So with that, I’ve often cast off the title because it’s tended to be meaningless, maybe useful for business cards or at most on your résumé. But John’s article gives a perspective that the title is meaningful, if applied to someone who actually fits the role.

Of course for it to truly be meaningful, the title needs to be properly applied over the course of a career, not just because you’re the lone coder at some startup you and your other 20-something-year-old friends put together over beers one evening fresh out of college.

In the end, it’s just a title. It doesn’t really matter. But the merits and qualities of a senior engineer, as John lays out, are what really matters and what are worth striving to be.

2012-10-25 workout – Wendler 5/3/1 program, cycle 14, press 2

My ankles suck.

“Week 2”

  • 3 reps – Press (working max: WT#)
    • 2x5x45 (warmup)
    • 1x5x65
    • 1x5x80
    • 1x3x95
    • 1x3x115 (work)
    • 1x3x130
    • 1x3x145
  • Asst. #1 – Press
    • 5 x 10/10/10/8/8 x 80
  • Asst. #1 – Wide, pronated grip lat pulldowns
    • 5 x 10/10/10/10/8 x 110

I didn’t deadlift this week. Since I reaggrevated my ankle chasing those coyotes then spending a LONG day at KR Training well… my ankle hates me. Even right now as I write this, my ankle is feeling some pain. *sigh* But damnit, I’m going to Press.

And press I did. It was a good workout, and I tell you… while my weight loss has slowed (but seems to be still progressing.. I’ll write more on this elsewhere), and while my strength is going down, the lighter weights I think are a blessing because I’m bringing up my form. So hey… all is good, right? I really am feeling a lot better in my form.

As for my ankle. I’m thinking a doctor visit may be in order… x-rays, and see what can be seen. Next week starts the 5/3/1 week and my heaviest days. I’m not sure if I’ll max out on squats and deadlifts. I’ve even wondered if I might need to drop off a strict Wendler program for a while and do something else. Probably keep on doing Wendler for bench press and press, but deadlift and squat might have to have something else that doesn’t stress my ankle so much so I can at least do something. Maybe just a lot of light sets, like squat at 135 for 5×10 or something. I don’t know yet…still thinking, but I need my ankle to heal.