2015-01-13 training log

Today was… ok.

Being down on food, sleep, and other things, while I chugged through today, it was a tougher day. I didn’t hit my reps on the stiff-legs, the squats were moving but moving slow. I just felt gassed, mostly…. Well, it is what it is. Nothing else to say.

I’ll get it back.

In other news… I’ve started to think again about competition. In many ways, it depends upon the state of things (e.g. The Defattening Project) and then how things go from there. But what I came back to, and I’ve thought about this before, is Hyde Park Gym (one of the bigger gyms in town, and if they were convenient to me I’d probably train there — there or Big Tex Gym, but they are completely on the other side of town from me), and how HPG does a push-pull event every summer. I don’t think you have to be a gym member to participate, and the barrier of entry is low, e.g. you don’t have to buy and wear special equipment, etc.. Sure, it’s not affiliated with any sort of Federation or anything, but it’s still judged, it’s still a competition. So who cares about the details, and yeah it’s not a full-meet, but whatever. If it could be the way to cut my teeth, I’m game to give it a shot. TBD.

Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • Squats (model 1)
    • bar x 5
    • bar x 5
    • 165 x 5
    • 190 x 4
    • 225 x 3
    • 250 x 2
    • 285 x 1
    • 200 x 5
    • 200 x 5
    • 200 x 5
    • 200 x 5
    • 200 x 5
  • Stiff-Legged Deadlift
    • 205 x 8
    • 205 x 8
    • 205 x 6
    • 205 x 6
    • 205 x 6
  • Leg Press
    • 135 x 20
    • 135 x 20
    • 135 x 20
  • Standing Calf Raises
    • 65 x 10
    • 65 x 10
    • 65 x 10
    • 65 x 10
    • 65 x 10

2015-01-12 training log

Of all the things, I forgot my phone. But the session setup is pretty familiar to me. I got a few weights wrong, but on the whole I knew what to do and did it. Hooray programming!

While right now my normal work-up is to 215, I worked up to 225. I’m not totally sure why, but I just wanted to do it. Maybe it was the emotional/ego need of “2 wheels”, of “doing that”, or whatever. But I also know that in Paul’s approach of “over-warmup”, it just feels like there should be more gap between where I work up to and then where I come back down to for the work sets. I mean, going up to 215 then coming down to 205 to work — just feels like there should be a little more gap there. So 225 felt right (my “working max” right now is 240). It actually went up pretty well.

As I mentioned before, I finally had a critical breakthrough with my benching and “leg drive” — lifting my toes”. Doing that is truly helping me actually get drive, because I think in the past with the toes on the ground it would cause me to kinda press/lift/drive from the toes… the angle that drive creates. But with the toes up, now it’s truly the flats of my feet driving, and I am certainly feeling myself pushing “back”, like if you will, sliding myself (head first) off the bench. I’m still refining things now because that is changing my bench placement and technique. I did try different widths, different degrees of forward and back. I think I need to have about a 90º placement of my knee joint and then my shins relative to the ground and thighs. If anything, maybe a hair forward, but certainly not tucking back towards my head. But then I need to reposition myself on the bench because I was certainly pushing my head off the bench today and even one time banged the bar into the uprights on the ascent (then just modified my groove to keep from doing that the rest of the reps).

So, that’s just going to take time to get right, but it’s coming. I’m pretty happy about that!

I may well stick with the work up to 225, but we’ll see…. it’s not too critical right now either way.

On dips. I had planned to do as I did with chins, to strive for a reach goal (in this case, 10 dips in a row) and just keep cranking the reps until I got there, to worry about “reps across (sets)” later… get to 10 on the first set, and keep repping out on every set thereafter, until I get to 10 across. That’s what I’m doing on chins. But as I started doing the dips, I changed and just went to 6 (I did 5 across last week). As soon as I started dipping, the dipping felt more comfortable, more groove, but still not there. But it was better. Like last week, the first few reps of each set felt clumsy with me trying to find the movement groove. Today, after the first 1-2 reps I found the groove and moved well. So, I think I just need to stay slow and take my time, get the groove greased, get my body really happy with the movement pattern, and while I’m doing it sure… like next week I’ll aim for 7 reps. But the goal isn’t to try rep up then across, it’s right now getting the movement, then I’ll worry about the goal.

So, really, a pretty good day.

Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • Bench Press (model 2)
    • bar x 5
    • bar x 5
    • 120 x 5
    • 145 x 4
    • 160 x 3
    • 180 x 2
    • 205 x 1
    • 225 x 1
    • 205 x 5
    • 205 x 5
    • 205 x 5
    • 180 x 5
    • 180 x 5
    • 180 x 5
    • 145 x 15 (AMRAP)
  • Dips
    • BW (230) x 6
    • BW (230) x 6
    • BW (230) x 6
    • BW (230) x 6
  • DB Incline Press (350 Method)
    • 40e x 19
    • 40e x 14
    • 40e x 11
  • Polquin Flies
    • 15e x 10
    • 15e x 10
    • 15e x 10

2015-01-05 training log

Training continues along.

I opted to make some changes because I think they’re better for me.

First, dips. I started doing “chest dip (between benches)“, which compare pretty similiarly to regular old chest dips. I did this because while I wanted to do regular dips, my body wasn’t quite happy with it. But the chest dips got better, I think my body adapted to the movement pattern, and for whatever it was worth I opted to just try regular old dips today. I mean, if I started and the body complained, it was no problem to stop.

So I dipped, and capped it arbitrarily at 5 reps. That was still fair work, I doubt I could have done 10 reps across, but it was good. I guess I may have been on a bit of happy high having hit the 5 chin-ups just the gym session prior, so why not see if I can stop sucking at dips too. 🙂 So, I’m going to continue. Same sort of approach here as with chins, aiming for 10 reps first, then 10 reps across.

Second, I changed my inclines from a barbell to dumbbells. This is a shoulder issue. With the DB’s I can rotate a lot easier and alleviate stresses on my shoulder. Incline BB’s aren’t horrible on my shoulder, but unless I get the groove and grip and everything exactly right well… let’s just say if I can get the benefits I need from DB’s and it removes some problems, all good. I don’t always care for DB-based work, but sometimes you have to do what you need to do instead of what you want to do.

Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • Bench Press (model 2)
    • bar x 5
    • bar x 5
    • 120 x 5
    • 140 x 4
    • 165 x 3
    • 180 x 2
    • 205 x 1
    • 215 x 1
    • 205 x 5
    • 205 x 5
    • 205 x 5
    • 180 x 5
    • 180 x 5
    • 180 x 5
    • 145 x 17 (AMRAP)
  • Dips
    • BW x 5
    • BW x 5
    • BW x 5
    • BW x 5
  • DB Incline Press (350 Method)
    • 35e x 24
    • 35e x 18
    • 35e x 15
  • Polquin Flies
    • 15e x 10
    • 15e x 10
    • 15e x 10

2015-01-02 training log

5! Woo!

I did not want to go to the gym this morning. Ever since going hunting a few weeks ago and waking up around 2:30 AM for that, my body now thinks 2:30 is the time to wake up. /sighs So I laid in bed for a little while, got my motivation up, and off I went.

Started out on a high note – got 5 chin-ups in a row. Yes, that’s an accomplishment. Frankly after hitting that, I felt so good, like it was the best PR I ever hit, and in some ways it is. I mean, I look back on being a kid and doing the Presidential Physical Fitness test and always meeting the standard in all areas, except pull-ups — couldn’t do one. I also remember realizing (and I didn’t know much about bodybuilding and getting stronger) that the P.E. teacher having us do push-ups wasn’t going to help us do pull-ups, as well as the lack of any exercises or work to ever help us get better at doing pull-ups. Hrm. But whatever… the big thing is going through life just sucking at chin-/pull-ups.

I’m not the only one. Just Google on the topic and there’s tons of articles dedicated to the topic of being able to just do 1 chin-/pull-up. It’s a tough thing. So really, that I banged out a nice 5 in a row today, plus 4 more sets of more, yeah, felt really damn good.

Thing is, a few weeks ago I realized that 5 was not that big a deal — that I wanted 10. It’s like all things: you get close to a goal, you’ll keep working to reach that goal, but you can’t help but (re)set your goals to something higher and better. To help me get there, I’m going to do a few things.

First, I do think chinning as often as I can helps. So I go to the gym, it’s not a back day, but at some point while I’m at the gym just grab the bar and bang out a few chins. Nothing much, nothing intensive, but just try to do some often enough. This is a reoccurring theme in “how to get better at chin-/pull-ups”, is frequency and just doing them often.

Second, just keep working up to 10. Normally I like working up to a number in sets across. So if I’m going to do 5 sets, now that I hit 5 reps on the 1st set, I’d keep working until I was hitting 5 reps across all 5 sets, then I would go up to 6 reps. But here, I’m not going to do that. I’m going to just keep chinning to (almost) failure, and do that on every set. I don’t want to go to true failure, where I’m struggling and can’t finish a rep — if I truly don’t think the next rep will be solid and clean, don’t do it, save it for the next set. But otherwise, just keep going. When I do hit 10 reps, I’ll probably work to deal with sets across, but for now it’s all about forging ahead on every set to 10 reps.

I know losing weight is going to help here too… I mean, it’s always easier to lift less weight.

As for the rest of the session, it was fine. No complaints. I am discovering new things about how my biceps really like being pushed. That when I think I can’t move any more, well, just keep moving because they really will keep going. Yah the reps get slower, but they keep working. Time will tell how well this pays off.

Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • Chins
    • BW x 5
    • BW x 4
    • BW x 2
    • BW x 2
    • BW x 2
  • BB Rows
    • 145 x 8
    • 145 x 8
    • 145 x 8
    • 145 x 8
    • 145 x 8
  • BB Shrugs
    • 205 x 12
    • 205 x 12
    • 205 x 12
    • 205 x 12
    • 205 x 12
  • Wide, Neutral-grip Lat Pulldowns
    • 130 x 10
    • 130 x 10
    • 130 x 10
    • 130 x 10
  • Hammer Curls
    • 30e x 12
    • 30e x 12
    • 30e x 9
  • BB Bar Curls (350-Method)
    • 45 x 20
    • 45 x 15
    • 45 x 15
  • 2015-01-01 training log

    Hrm. I don’t know what to do about my pressing.

    I’ve been pretty stagnant on my pressing for some time now. Granted, I’m not trying to really grow this lift, it’s just assistance work. But still, everything else goes up and this just remains stuck, maybe even regressing a bit. Like on the 4th work set, the last couple reps were true grinders — barely got the 8th rep to lock out. Consequently I was tapped for the 5th work set and barely got 3. I did a couple more rest-pause, but still. Why has it been hanging this way for weeks? I’m not sure how to change things up to break through this. Thinking on it.

    Otherwise, things chugged along fairly well.

    Weighed in at 235# this morning too. Down…down…down.

    Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • Press
    • bar x 5
    • bar x 5
    • 65 x 5
    • 85 x 5
    • 105 x 8
    • 105 x 8
    • 105 x 8
    • 105 x 8
    • 105 x 3/2/2 (rest-pause)
  • Upright Rows
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
  • Polquin-style Side Laterals
    • 20e x 10
    • 20e x 10
    • 20e x 10
  • Face Pulls
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
  • Close-Grip Bench Press (350 Method)
    • 115 x 23
    • 115 x 15
    • 115 x 11
  • Triceps Pressdowns
    • 60 x 15
    • 60 x 12
    • 60 x 12
  • 2014-12-30 training log

    Again, I threw caution into the wind and just upped the weights. I don’t regret it.

    I do regret forgetting my knee sleeves tho. 🙂

    So I bumped up the weights another 10#, recalculated and away I went. What gets me is hitting 285 fairly easily and without a belt — it wasn’t too long ago that number was tough WITH a belt, and a better set of knee and ankle joints.

    The work sets @ 200 worked well. I really focused on keeping my upper body tight. One thing I’m trying to correct is how I come out of the hole. Two things. First, I’m thinking back to Starting Strength and “leading with my hips/ass”. That when I start my descent, I break at the hips first followed almost immediately by breaking at the knees (it’s almost simultaneous, but certainly the hips break first). Down I go, then when I come out of the hole lead with my hips/ass coming up first but NOT so much that I bend over (shoulders/bar remain at the same place while the butt rises… no everything goes up, just the hips lead the motion). Second, that I keep a little bit of forward lean in my back. What I’ve found myself doing lately is trying to correct so much for lean forward that I’m too upright… it starts to feel like I’m front squatting. Not really, but that’s the feel of it. I’m trying to drive the head back a lot, really get the torso upright, but it’s too much. First, I’m just not as strong this way (who front squats more than they back squat? if you will). Second, it’s moving the bar back behind my center — the bar isn’t remaining properly centered over the mid-foot. I think those mild corrections in form helped move everything really well today. I mean, doing the 200 work sets today felt better, easier, more powerful (more C.A.T.) than then 195 work sets last week.

    That all said, I did leave the house without my knee sleeves (just forgot to pack them). I still can’t say for 100% sure if the knee sleeves truly help me or not, if it’s just a placebo. But I certainly do feel better with them, and seem to have fewer knee issues in the gym with them on. I don’t think they give me any help with the weight moved (not like tight knee wraps), but whatever they are giving me — even if placebo — seems good.

    Stiff-legs continue to be a light thing, as I work on ensuring I get technique right. I still find myself sometimes bending more than pushing the hips back. There seems to be a sweet spot where I’m really feeling it in the hamstrings vs. just moving the weight. I hit it sometimes, and am still zeroing in on it. It’s coming along tho.

    I’m also going to try to up the volume a bit on the calf raises. They seem to be happy with the standing raises, a little heavier and fewer reps (i.e. 10 reps instead of 20), and then like 5 sets. We’ll see how it fares long-term.

    All in all, good day.

    Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

    • Squats (model 1)
      • bar x 5
      • bar x 5
      • 165 x 5
      • 190 x 4
      • 225 x 3
      • 250 x 2
      • 285 x 1
      • 200 x 5
      • 200 x 5
      • 200 x 5
      • 200 x 5
      • 200 x 5
    • Stiff-Legged Deadlift
      • 195 x 8
      • 195 x 8
      • 195 x 8
      • 195 x 8
      • 195 x 8
    • Leg Press
      • 135 x 20
      • 135 x 20
      • 135 x 20
    • Standing Calf Raises
      • 65 x 10
      • 65 x 10
      • 65 x 10
      • 65 x 10
      • 65 x 10

    2014-12-29 training log

    I know I wanted to move faster, but eh… I bumped up the weight. I think that was better, because I realized a few things from it.

    First, I bumped up the weight because… I could. I actually felt like it was an alright thing to do, in line with everything. I continue to enjoy the fact I’m losing fat but still growing in strength. The strength gains are MUCH slower than normal, but hey, progress is progress, especially since I’m dropping the fat pretty well.

    Second, I’ve had this issue with my butt coming off the bench, especially when I get leg drive going. For some reason today I did something different…. something that’s been known about forever but for whatever reason I didn’t apply it in this context until this morning: I lifted up my big toe (well, all my toes). When I did this, it really helped to keep my leg drive force going “back” in a plane parallel to the bench, and not so much force going “up” which would cause me to lift my butt off the bench. This made all the difference in the world in terms of leg drive. No idea why I didn’t apply this “lift the toe” in this context before but well, better late than never. I’m going to have to play with it because it did change a lot, how things felt, and I’m going to have to adjust my setup because I was driving myself off the end of the bench. But hey, I’ll go with this emotion.

    Third, I am tossing around the idea of using DB’s for the inclines, as it may be nicer on my shoulders.

    Fourth, on my assistance pressing work (maybe should do it on all my pressing work), going to full lock out. Yeah, you get in a groove and you go to extension but not a full lock. I noticed while doing dips that going to that full lock did a bit more of a number on my triceps. I may not do it on everything, but certainly dips and other things that really can stress my triceps, keep some more tension on the triceps and squeeze them at the top, etc…. yeah.

    Fifth, the Polquin Flies don’t feel like they really work me, so I keep thinking about dumping them. But then I do them and gee if I don’t think they are helping my shoulders out, to really strengthen and prehab things in that area. Frankly, I think that’s more important than a “nice pec pump”, y’know? so I will continue with them.

    Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

    • Bench Press (model 2)
      • bar x 5
      • bar x 5
      • 120 x 5
      • 140 x 4
      • 165 x 3
      • 180 x 2
      • 205 x 1
      • 215 x 1
      • 205 x 5
      • 205 x 5
      • 205 x 5
      • 180 x 5
      • 180 x 5
      • 180 x 5
      • 145 x 13 (AMRAP)
    • Bench Dips (between benches)
      • BW x 12
      • BW x 12
      • BW x 12
      • BW x 10
    • Incline Press (350 Method)
      • 85 x 17
      • 85 x 12
      • 85 x 12
    • Polquin Flies
      • 12e x 12
      • 12e x 12
      • 12e x 12

    2014-12-16 training log

    Oh yeah…. carbs are good. 🙂

    Yesterday being Christmas, I took a break from the diet. Generally stuck with the plan, but I had no reserves about having 2 slices of my wife’s awesome apple pie, and partaking in some of the confections baked, prepared, and given to us by friends and neighbors. I also had a little bit of cheese, which I haven’t eaten since I started on The Defattening Project back in August.

    You’re never going to look back on your life and wished you had dieted harder. But you will wish that you had loved more, risked more, and laughed more. Put your “training and diet” aside for a day (or even two!) and put life first for a while. – Paul Carter

    That said, today I’m back on the Train to Loserville; in fact, tightening it up just a bit. After I have my oatmeal (which I’m eating as I type this), no more carbs the rest of the day. Then Sat/Sun will be the normal carb-less days, so that should fair well.

    I also got to nap… huzzah!

    Given the carb-loading (ha ha), I knew today would be pretty good, and sure enough it was. 🙂

    Chin-ups are coming along quite well. The general plan is to just do them, multiple sets, and as many as I can cleanly do, and strive to have the total done be more than last time. Don’t struggle out another rep if it can’t be clean, save it for the next set. Things are getting better. I also am sneaking in a few chins on other gym days, nothing serious, but at some point I’ll just hang from the bar and do a couple. Like I said, there was a time when 5 was a great goal, and of course I still want that. But whereas before 10 was never a thought, now 10 is a goal. Thankfully my shoulders are not complaining so much about the chin-/pull-ups. Basically I’m fine with the modifications to the chin-ups to make this happen (e.g. I do not go 100% down to a dead hang, close but not enough to let my shoulders get “out of joint”, if you will; grip width is slightly less than shoulder-width).

    Everything else went pretty well.

    One thing I’m discovering about biceps work is that I can crank it out. The reps get slow, but I certainly can keep cranking out fairly strict reps long after I think I can’t. And so I’m doing that… just keep going, even if it’s slow, and don’t stop until the muscle really can’t lift it any more. Then today after the 350’s I did a drop set going to 30 for AMRAP then 20 for AMRAP… only got like 6-8 reps each time, but whatever. Just focused on contracting the muscle. I’m starting to think that for direct biceps work I need to have something “compound and heavy” that taxes things well, then something that’s higher reps, and in both cases focus on the contraction and just keep going because there’s more in the tank than I’d think… and that seems to work things out nicely. Not sure how it’ll parlay into growth and strength given I’m not focused on that right now, but at least it makes me feel like the muscles are getting worked.

    Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • Chins
    • BW x 4
    • BW x 3
    • BW x 2
    • BW x 2
    • BW x 2
  • BB Rows
    • 145 x 8
    • 145 x 8
    • 145 x 8
    • 145 x 8
    • 145 x 8
  • BB Shrugs
    • 205 x 12
    • 205 x 12
    • 205 x 12
    • 205 x 12
    • 205 x 12
  • Wide, Neutral-grip Lat Pulldowns
    • 125 x 10
    • 125 x 10
    • 125 x 10
    • 125 x 10
  • Hammer Curls
    • 25e x 12
    • 25e x 12
    • 25e x 12
  • BB Bar Curls (350 method)
    • 45 x 18
    • 45 x 15
    • 45 x 15
  • 2014-12-25 training log

    Yeah I know — it’s Christmas Day, but I can still go to the gym can’t I? 🙂 I mean, all I want for Christmas is GAINZ, amiright? 😉 Well for me, negative gains… defattening is the goal.

    I mean… press day… I could make some sort of pun about “lifting Him up” or something. 😉

    I feel a bit stagnant on the pressing. Not sure why. Could be that I’m coming off a no-carb day, but I don’t think so because the assistance work always goes so well (and I should be even more spent by then, but maybe the peri-workout carbs have kicked in by then…. /shrugs). To try to make up for it, I did the last set rest-pause to get a little more in.

    Otherwise it is what it is. Bumped up weights, and just trying to do what I can to progress.

    Merry Christmas!

    Based upon Paul Carter’s Basebuilding

  • Press
    • bar x 5
    • bar x 5
    • 65 x 5
    • 85 x 5
    • 105 x 8
    • 105 x 8
    • 105 x 8
    • 105 x 8
    • 105 x 5/2/2 (rest-pause)
  • Upright Rows
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
    • 70 x 12
  • Polquin-style Side Laterals
    • 20e x 12
    • 20e x 12
    • 20e x 10
  • Face Pulls
    • 65 x 12
    • 65 x 12
    • 65 x 12
    • 65 x 12
    • 65 x 12
  • Close-Grip Bench Press (350 Method)
    • 115 x 21
    • 115 x 15
    • 115 x 10
  • Triceps Pressdowns
    • 60 x 15
    • 60 x 12
    • 60 x 10
  • Lessons in Perseverance and Patience

    Youngest and I went deer hunting again.

    When we tried about 2 weeks ago, the hunt was not successful. However, a lot of good things came from it. Best of all, it just meant we had to go out to the field again, spend more time with each other again bonding and building memories. Gee, horrible thing. 😉

    And so, we set out again.

    We started pretty much the same way: waking up at a very early hour, rolling to the property, setting up and sitting down. We set up in the same place as before, because I know deer show up in that area.

    Well, they’re supposed to.

    The Morning

    We spent 4 hours in the stand… with nothing. I mean, it was deader than last time. The most exciting thing was a bird landed on a bush in front of the stand, and we saw it poop. Yeah… that was the highlight of the morning.

    After our patience and bladders reached their breaking point, we got out of the stand, headed up to the house, and relaxed a bit. Had made prior arrangements to have lunch with a friend (Deputy Rudolph), so let him know that we were ready to go. Well, since he was on duty and working, I expected a little wait in case he was dealing with something. Sure enough he was. So we waited a bit, then headed up to Elm Creek Cafe, only to find out it was closed on Mondays. Rearranged plans, went into the town of Giddings. Alas, Deputy Rudolph hadn’t even started the work detail he was on, so there was more waiting. Eventually he finished and was on his way, but then got stuck at a railroad crossing. It took him a while before he showed up. Meantime, we sat in the truck, in the parking lot of the restaurant, and watched many people arrive, enter, eat, then leave… while we continued to sit. I’m not mad at things, not his fault for the timing of it all. But… it was just another case of waiting, and waiting. Still, lunch was really good and it was great to see him. We had a long lunch, talking about all manner of things, including Youngest getting to learn a little about the realities of police work.

    The Return

    After lunch, we headed back to the ranch. Karl had suggested we could pass some time by taking one of his .22’s and going squirrel hunting. I’ve never done that, and Youngest was hip to the idea. But it was pretty clear he was hip to it because 1. we had seen lots of squirrels, 2. it seemed to him like his best chance to get SOMETHING.

    But it wasn’t to be.

    As soon as we pulled into the ranch, a very nice doe ran literally right in front of my truck in the big pasture. ARGH! I didn’t bring my rifle because I have this thing about leaving valuables in the car, and I didn’t even just leave it in the house… no… I had locked it up in the safe. I ran into the house, opened the safe, grabbed the rifle, then ran back out to the pasture. I figured the doe might slow down once she hit the treeline.

    We hoofed it through the double-gates into the pasture. As I reached the end of the first fenceline I looked north to scan down by the fence and treeline there towards the stock tank. Sure enough, I saw her right there at the fence about 200 yards away. I rested the rifle on the big corner fence post and as I was finding her in the scope a huge RUMBLE scared her off. Seems the fence repairs guys were out at the far south end of the property, probably what flushed her out in the first place, and as he started up his truck engine it scared her off. Damnit. We hoofed it through the pasture down to the gate, to circle around the stock tank – maybe she was just inside the woods, maybe at the water. Alas, nothing. We headed back to the house to properly prep. I decided to go ahead and just sit in the stand because hey… deer are there, and we certainly have no chance at one if we’re not in the stand.

    The Afternoon

    Yes, we got into the stand early, probably earlier than truly needed. But you just can’t know when the deer will be out, and if we’re going to sit around and wait, might as well wait in the stand.

    And… the boredom sunk in again. Making it worse, a good lunch digesting, unseasonable warmth (it got into the low 70’s), and facing west with the afternoon sun coming into the blind onto our dark-colored clothing… and yeah, we were both nodding off.

    But here’s one change we made.

    While sitting in the morning, I kept looking at the lay of the land. We weren’t in the best spot. Yes, it was a good spot from a “being camouflaged and blending in” perspective, but we couldn’t see all that we needed to see.

    Here’s a map:

    This morning (and all hunts prior), we set up around the the green dot. This was at a high point, altitude-wise, and gave very good sight north and south, which game cameras and observation of deer movement told us this strip was very productive. This was also a nice spot because it was up in a clump of bushes and trees so you blended in pretty well. But notice, all you can really see is north and south.

    On prior hunts I had scanned the area looking for other positions, but nothing really gave us as good a vantage point. Sure better camouflage, but worse sight lines. I always looked at it tho from a perspective of “remaining hidden”.

    This afternoon tho, I said screw it. Well, I actually said that after we finished up in the morning and before we went to lunch I moved the blind a bit north. The blind was totally out in the open, but we had a MUCH better vantage point on all fronts. To the south, it wasn’t as good as we had before, but it was quite adequate because if a deer was blocked by that tree/bush clump, it would just be a matter of time before they moved out. To the north, we were slightly higher and saw northward much better. But the most significant was to the west, as you can see by the red arrow.

    I started to have a feeling that the deer were moving but NOT along the normal trail. Too open? Smelled us? the winds were coming from the south, so any deer to our north (normal movement pattern was starting north and moving south) obviously would smell us. Who knows why, but I just got a feeling that given all things I had observed and considered, they were moving, just behind the trees.

    My hunch paid off.

    My Mistakes

    Around 5 PM I see a doe poke her head out from behind the trees, basically where the red arrow ends. She starts walking right towards us.

    Of course, I get all excited! Youngest knew to be still, move slow. He watched over my shoulder (he was sitting behind me in the blind; got to know the back of my head really well). But me? My heart was racing, my breathing was deep, and I was just all worked up. Not even so much because it was a deer and finally our opportunity, but because man… I really wanted this for Youngest.

    There is nothing wrong with making a kid learn to wait. But there’s a balance to be had, because if all they ever get is waiting then they may well lose interest and all is lost. I really wanted Youngest to finally have his chance to see how everything goes down. I was really worked up and I guess nervous and stressed that this is it… but we might lose this chance…

    And so, I rushed it.

    The shot was NOT steady. I knew it wasn’t. But I was too afraid to miss the chance.

    Well, I missed the deer.

    From how she ran off, the lack of any subsequent noise, I knew I had flat out missed.

    And I was angry with myself. Angry because I rushed it. Angry because I risked taking an unethical shot. Angry because I may have lost our sole opportunity. Angry for so many reasons. And I made sure to vocalize it to Youngest, not that it was his fault or anything, but I’ve never been anything but honest with my kids and even them seeing that “even Dad” can screw up, I think is important. That we’re human too, and here’s how to deal with it, y’know?

    Still, I told him that we wait, because if she’s dead she’s dead, and if not well… sometimes they come back.

    Sure enough, she did. About 5-10 minutes later she poked her head out of the same spot. I got her in my sights, perfect broadside shot. But this time I told myself to take another deep breath and steady myself. As I did that, her head shot up, major alert position, and she bolted. I swear I never have seen a deer turn tail and just sprint away so quickly.

    Damnit #2.

    It was interesting to show to Youngest how sometimes you have to wait, but if you wait too long, the opportunity could be lost. It’s truly a strange game and balancing act.

    I slumped back in my chair.

    Then… we heard snorting.

    There was another deer stamping feet and snorting hard at us. If you look at the map, there’s a clump of trees/bushes between the red and yellow lines, close to the red dot. The deer was just behind that clump. No ability to get a shot, but you could see the deer easily being mad, snorting, fading back a bit, but not heading off. I figured to bring the rifle up and be ready because if she was there, likely she was going to emerge somewhere. I had Youngest watch her movements to see if he could pick up on direction — he was doing really well tracking her movements through the scrub, so I told him to let me know if she was going north or south.

    North.

    And then, she stuck her head out from behind the trees, about at the end of the yellow arrow. She was quartering towards me and just standing there. I was steady, slow smooth press, and that was that. Youngest watched the whole thing, saw her jump, reported that her front leg “swung around like Jell-O”, and that was pretty clear that between what I saw in the scope and what he saw, that she was taken cleanly. She ran about 50 yards to the yellow dot, and we found her under a tree.

    Biology Lesson

    Now began the next phase: cleaning and processing. 🙂

    Of course, I did most of the work here, but Youngest helped. He helped me put her on the back of the truck, helped by holding her when it was needed to keep her steady. He’d keep the truck bed lights running and other things I needed.

    And he got quite a lesson in how the body works, seeing it all up close. He didn’t want to touch any internals, but he did of course hold the body, feel the warmth, and well… it gains you a big respect for life.

    He got to see how the organs are hooked up and how things work. He did also see how the organs can easily be stopped. He saw the entry would, the exit wound, and what a bullet can do. I could tell it was a sobering moment for him, which is good. Respect for such things is important, and Hollywood will never teach you that respect – only direct experience can.

    We processed a fair amount of meat. As you can see from the picture, she was a nice-sized Central Texas whitetail doe. I was surprised at the meat I was able to trim off her, because yeah… we waste nothing. All the edible meat I could trim I kept. Everything else was left to feed the coyotes and the vultures, because they need to eat too. The ground was nourished by nutrient-rich blood. Really, it’s how nature works, that whole “circle of life” thing.

    Youngest learned a lot.

    Lessons Learned

    One thing Youngest struggles with is being patient, so I think this whole thing was a big lesson to him about being patient. And how patience will pay off.

    It also teaches about perseverance, because we had to keep trying. When he wanted to zone out and stop scanning for deer, I’d tell him to keep working because you never know. One moment you see nothing, then it’s like the deer appears out of nowhere. Sure enough he saw that.

    He wanted to rush out and find the deer after my first shot, but I told him not to because they’ll often come back. Sure enough they did, you just had to wait.

    Oh, there were so many things learned. Little things, big things. From what might have been an insignificant moment, to the overarching issues of “waiting”. There’s just so much to gain here, I can’t detail it all.

    Often times the bigger things you get out of life come from the work, not the end achieved. I will be curious to see how 5-10-20 years from now he will look back on this time and how it perhaps affected him. I hope it will be great things.

    For me? I’m still not fully sure all that I was to take from this experience, but I can tell you one thing.

    After I missed the shot, then missed the opportunity, I was so down on myself. But then after we took the deer, just before we left the stand Youngest stood up and put his arm around me and said, “See Dad? Don’t be mad at yourself. It all works out.” Yeah… I choked up a bit. That was money, right there. 🙂

    We had a great adventure. Oldest and Daughter always have pretty straightforward hunting experiences. This time with Youngest was unique, and even his siblings recognize how cool it was. Even tho he didn’t take the deer, it was still his first time for the experience. I think he’s hooked. I don’t consider this “my deer”, I consider it “our deer”, because I know I couldn’t have done it without him. Thanx, son.