What are you entrusting your life to?

What is more important? Your ego or your life?

I’ve been giving the Sig Sauer P365 a trial. You can read and see about my exploration on my Instagram feed. There’s my first thought, my first live fire session, second live fire session (including a little fun). But what was more telling? I opted to shoot it exclusively during the 2019 Rangemaster Instructor Reunion and Conference. That’s no small potatoes. You know you’re going to be shooting tough courses. You know you’ll be shooting and the eyes of a few dozen top instructors will be watching you (because you will shoot The Casino Drill solo in front of everyone). And there’s Tom Givens – a man who commands the highest respect, and you don’t want to let him down. There’s a lot of pressure to perform well – so is it really the right place to shoot a small gun? an untested gun?

I can’t think of a better place!

I am considering this gun for personal protection. I am wanting to bet my life on it. If it – and I with it – cannot perform in high pressure situations on demand? Then it’s no good.

You can read about the aftermath in 3 parts: part 1, part 2, and here’s part 3:

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Sig P365. A turn for the worse. Part 3 of 3. . For the Rangemaster Instructor Reunion & Conference 2019, I shot the Sig P365 as a part of vetting the gun. . What's the verdict? I'm happier with Day 2’s performance. . For me, I stopped thinking about the gun and just shot; be in the moment of this shot now. I forced myself to shoot slower: I cannot shoot theP365 as fast as my M&P9 M2.0 4" Compact. After the BUG drill I looked at other targets and had better grouping than others – dedicated work with the small gun pays off. That's a clue for you who carry small guns but rarely/never shoot them. . The gun? 3 malfs out of 1200 total rounds to date, all failures to extract. Could it be the ammo? Signs point that way, but can't be certain; there was no time to stop and diagnose. I didn't like the magazines not falling free. Confidence in the gun IS shaken. Part of me wants to take the gun to at least 2000 rounds before I pass a verdict – certainly some additional testing against the first ammo. However, it's going to have to wait. Ahead for me is Gabe White's Pistol Shooting Solutions, and the first ever Rangemaster Master Instructor course. Thus it's time to go back to my M&P and get where I need to be for those. I will still carry the P365 now and again when I truly need that gun, and I am going to keep up dry and live fire with it, just not dedicated. There's a sick little part of me that wants to take Gabe's class with the P365… 😈 . It's not the result my ego wanted (I wanted it to be problem free and awesome); but it actually is precisely the result I truly wanted. I wanted to shoot the P365 under tough circumstances to ensure I could entrust my life to it. This is one big value of meaningful formal training classes: it will stress you and your gear unlike anything else, and provide you with important information and guidance. Yes, my ego didn't want to do it, but my head and heart knew it was best; I'm happy I did it. . Video of my 3M Test run. I’m in the black shirt. . . . . . #gun #guns #sig #sigsauer #sigp365 #p365 #edc #smallguns #pocketguns #rangemaster #rangemasterinstructorreunion #krtraining #2a #concealedcarry #rkba #darkstargear #freedommunitions

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Here’s the thing.

I have been shooting that P365 exclusively for a good while. I have been doing daily dry fire, and then a few live-fire sessions. I had about 800 rounds through the gun before the Reunion, and total around 1200 after. Frankly, that’s more rounds than many people shoot in a year, and some guns/people see in a lifetime. That weekend I shot with a lot of people of high skill, and you can see how I performed – and with the P365.

What I found interesting was when on Sunday morning everyone switched to their small gun, I saw that I continued to shoot about the same but I watched many around me degrade in their shooting skill. The take-away?

Shooting with small guns is hard.

Even for highly-skilled people, it’s harder to shoot a small gun than a big gun. (this is not new news: see the article Karl Rehn wrote back in 2012 on this very topic)

I see it time and time again. People come to class with a big gun and a fancy rig to carry it in. I ask them if that’s what they normally carry and the answer is no, they carry a tiny gun in a pocket holster. The follow-up question is why they aren’t shooting the class with the gun they carry. And there’s lots of reasons, some I might accept and most I won’t. Whatever the specific reason is, if you peel back the layers it often comes down to a simple thing:

  1. they know their small gun is hard to shoot
  2. they don’t want to look stupid or incompetent in class struggling to shoot the small, difficult gun

I get it. My ego wasn’t happy with how the Reunion weekend went. I felt a little ego-bruised because there were a number of people I respect seeing me shoot for the first time… and this was to be their impression of me and my skills. And here I am, shooting at my home range, as the Senior Assistant Instructor of KR Training, just published the “Strategies and Standards for Defensive Handgun Training” book, all this ego investment.

So trust me – I get it.

And when the weekend and gun and my shooting didn’t go as great as my ego wanted it to? Oh yeah, I felt it.

I get it. I really do.

But here’s the thing.

What I got out of the weekend (in terms of the gun and my shooting it) was PRECISELY what I wanted to get out of the endeavor. I wanted to see if it would perform, and how I would perform with it. And I got that.

  • I feel the gun needs a little more time before I can feel the hardware is as flawless as a human-created machine can get; and that I can trust it
  • I learned I have to put in a LOT of dedicated time with it (more than I anticipated), and that I cannot (yet) shoot it to the same level as my full-size gun.

But I also got that when I put in the time, the payoff is good.

Frankly, all of the time and investment I made in shooting the P365, including shooting it during the Reunion, gave me more knowledge, more skill, more ability, and more confidence in not just the hardware, but me. I cannot stress the importance of knowing your equipment – and knowing yourself, not just your capabilities but your limits too. If an instructor is going to embarrass you, belittle you, or laugh at you because you can’t shoot – they’re not an instructor, they’re a jerk. The fact you are coming to class is acknowledgement you don’t know and you wish to learn, that you admit your shortcomings and want to improve. If anyone’s going to make you feel bad about that, they can fuck right off.

This is a clue for you folks that carry a small gun but rarely practice with it. Or that come to class with a bigger gun to “game” the class.

To what are you entrusting your life?

Is your ego more important to preserve than your life?

Set your ego aside. If you’re going to entrust your life to something, make sure you are skilled and confident in that something.

4 thoughts on “What are you entrusting your life to?

    • Ah, the subject of much Internet debate. 🙂

      I don’t think there’s any try scientific or really valid measure of this — it’s purely whatever a person feels comfortable with. Me? If I can run a few hundred of “whatever ammo” through without a hiccup (i.e. whatever practice/target/plinking ammo I have), that’s the first step. I would expect that to run flawlessly (only exceptions might be for other things like bad ammo, me, environmental conditions, etc.). Once it passes that, then I’d be OK with “a box” of my carry ammo. Reason being the few hundred I ran already demonstrate the gun runs (or doesn’t). The only significant difference between the plinking ammo and the carry ammo is the bullet shape – so if after 50-ish rounds (yes I buy the big boxes) of carry ammo, that should be good enough to say it feeds or not. AND then how the added recoil of +P works out.

      Bottom line: it’s gonna be more of a “feel” thing.

  1. Looked at the P 365, but the more I read, the more I was concerned about early problems. Reliability is job 1. Got a Glock 43. Not sexy, but reliable. I have shot a G27 since the mid ‘90s, so manual of arms is the same.

    • From what I can understand, the P365 had issues early on — and many guns (and other man-made products) go through the same sort of “early pains”. But from what I can see both in my experience and the experiences of others with recent-made P365s is they run well.

      Honestly, I’m generally OK with the (my) P365. 1200 rounds with only those 3 hiccups, and I’m leaning towards the ammo being the cause of the hiccups. I just haven’t had opportunity since the Reunion to put it through some more paces to try to see “is it ammo? is it gun?” I mean, I still strapped the P365 on my hip that same night to go home, and I’ve carried it without reservation since then.

      That said, if you’ve been a Glock person for ages and know the platform, work it well, comfort and investment there – it’s legit to stay on that road. Heck, that Glock 48 is mighty mighty nice and oh so tempting.

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