Concerts and self-defense

Going to the Motörhead show last night, I had to decide what I was going to do in terms of self-defense.

The reality is, every show and venue is different. Some venues I just walk into with no problems. Some venues might have “no weapon” policies but they’re there more because of their lawyers. Some venues might have 51% signs or true 30.06 signs to prohibit concealed carry. But then they’ll have no frisking. Or I’ve been to some shows where I’ve been frisked heavily and wanded down. It’s always a crap shoot.

I don’t expect to have problems. Most people go to concerts to have a good time. But the reality is, there’s lots of people, lots of testosterone, lots of alcohol (and probably other drug use, tho I don’t worry much about the stoners), and there’s always a chance for something to happen. Fights do break out from time to time. I’ve read news stories of people being knifed at shows. And we cannot forget about what happened to Dimebag Darrell. In my younger years I probably wouldn’t have thought twice about my safety at shows, but I’m older, wiser, more conservative, and so now I think about these things.

So last night having no idea how Stubb’s ran their show, I mostly disarmed. But I did what I could. Steel toed boots, not only good because drunks stumble and inevitably step on your toes but they’re useful for kicking. I wore a belt with a large buckle… no knife or anything hidden there, just would suck to get hit with it being swung around. And, I took my cane.

But the biggest thing? Mentality.

It’s about keeping aware of things (e.g. I stood with my back against a railing so it’d be difficult for someone to come up behind me, plus it was useful for leaning against when I got tired of standing for so long). It’s about watching the people. It’s about being aware of your surroundings, where are the exits, where’s cover, and so on.

And it’s about Always Being Cool.

However, I wish there was a way to know what I would be up against. Am I going to be frisked? It’d be nice to know that before I left the house. It’d be nice to know if a venue had particular policies, be it their own policy or something like 30.06 or 51% notification. It’d be nice to be able to be properly prepared. Granted, the mindset is you have to be cooler about things than usual because there are lots of people and you know a lot of people are just going to be alcohol-fueled so it’s even more reason to just be cool. And should someone get stupid, to just keep your cool and don’t take it personally and find other ways to deal with it.

Still, I can’t help but think about situations at shows where it did turn truly ugly. I just hope to not be around when that happens again.

Stupid iPhone

Last night at the Motörhead show my iPhone crapped out on me… again.

So much for getting pictures.

I actually had taken a couple pictures of The Sword.

I intentionally left the phone on “Camera” so I could take more pictures, especially of the Motörhead performance. But then I pull out the phone, press buttons and no response. Damnit. I fiddle with all the buttons I can, and nothing. The phone, she’s dead. Last time this happened to me I had done a similar thing: the phone was likely left on an application, I put the phone into my back pocket, pull it out and she’s dead. That time I had plugged in the phone and eventually saw the battery come alive with almost no charge… so the battery had run down. I figured that’s what happened here so I just forgot about it until I got home.

However when I got home and plugged in the phone for a while, it didn’t come back. Uh oh. I Googled about it and apparently this is not an uncommon problem. The solution?

A hard reset.

Press the power button and home button together and hold… you might have to hold for a little while (30-60 seconds?), but eventually you should see the Apple logo on screen. When you do, it’ll churn away and eventually you go about your business. I did have about 70% battery left, which means some battery was drained but not everything.

Digging deeper into my ~/Library/Logs/CrashReporer/MobileDevice/ folder of my sync machine, it looks like the phone had a kernel panic.

Ah… modern computing.

Anyway, now that I know about the hard reset, next time this happens I’ll try that and see how it goes.

We are Motörhead, and we play rock and roll!

March 16, 2010. Motörhead @ Stubb’s BBQ in Austin, Texas.

Damn good show.

The SXSW (South By SouthWest) festival is going on this week. This show was not part of SXSW, but rather the debut of the Lemmy documentary movie, which is debuting at the festival. A whole week of Motörhead activities. While I’d love to catch the movie, too much of the rest of it is wrapped up in SXSW b.s. and I prefer not to deal with that headache. I’ll catch the movie eventually.

The headache was already evident. Downtown Austin was overrun by people wearing SXSW badges. Damn hipsters. 😉 Driving was a pain. Parking was mostly difficult but I lucked out because I got there fairly early and found parking in a lot right across the street.

But the show, it rocked.

Started out with a band called Year Long Disaster. Never heard of them, but they weren’t too bad. They were tight, some of the songs were alright. They need to learn how to be a live band tho, like crowd interaction and putting on a show. But they’re new and young, and they have potential. I don’t think I’d buy their album, but only because it wasn’t really the sort of thing I’m into. Still, they were decent and I found myself digging some of their songs. They pulled out a cover of Black Sabbath’s “Never Say Die” which I thought was pretty cool as I always thought that was a great song for a live performance (so much energy).

Next up was Austin, Texas’ own, The Sword. I came across them about 2 years ago. Reading blabbermouth.net and I saw some blurb about an Austin band. Being as I read it on blabbermouth that meant there was a metal band in this town, which is welcome from all the prolific “singer-songwriter” crud around this town (you can’t spit without hitting a “starving musician” in this town). I checked out their debut album, “Age of Winters” and then picked up “Gods of the Earth” when it came out. Sometimes the singer’s voice is a little monotonous for me (he doesn’t have a lot of range), but overall I really dig the band and have been itching to see them live since I first listened to their album. I just found it crazy that The Sword was from Austin but rarely played here! So that they were on this bill was a fantastic bonus.

The Sword rocked. Hard. They are tight. Heavy. They played numerous songs from their first two albums, but they also played three songs from their upcoming album (they said it was coming out this summer). Those 3 songs were killer. It’s evident this band is growing, progressing, getting better. It certainly whet my appetite for the next album. Their lead guitarist, Kyle Shutt? He shreds. Being the sort of “sludge doom Sabbathy” sort of band that they are, you wouldn’t think it, but in those new songs Shutt was shredding. It fit quite well with the energy and flow of the songs. I’m looking forward to the album. Awesome stuff.

Finally, what we came for. Motörhead.

The band was on, as you’d expect after so many decades together. Mikkey Dee is an amazing drummer. Phil Campbell is underrated as a guitarist (metal or blues, because ultimately he’s a blues guy). And of course, Lemmy. The show was very much a modern Motörhead show, with the band just belting out the songs one after another. Small bits of interaction and in between songs, and you can tell these guys really enjoy playing together… joking on stage, talking to each other, but taking care of business. And doing it loud. I’m sure they were pushing the limits of any noise ordinance.

The performance was solid, although there was one obvious screw up. Lemmy started “Going to Brazil” but the rest of the band wasn’t ready. They had a good laugh and started again. This is the joy of live music, real music — no Auto-Tune here. The setlist was fairly expected, especially the encore. But some obscure gems were pulled out, like “Cradle to the Grave”. I was personally happy they started out with “Iron Fist” (I believe the first Motörhead song I heard as a kid), and threw in songs like “In The Name Of Tragedy” and “Just Cos You Got The Power”. I didn’t know it was Lemmy that played the harmonica during “Whorehouse Blues”; it was different to see him just standing on stage behind a mic without his Rickenbacker. The trouble is, with so many albums and so many years at this, how do you make a setlist? You just can’t play everything, you just can’t get all the songs and favorites in there. I would have loved to hear “I’m So Bad (Baby I Don’t Care)” but alas. So they of course put in some crowd staples (e.g. “Ace of Spades”), something for the old farts in the back in the rocking chairs (“Metropolis”), and just had fun and pleased themselves with their choice of songs.

  1. Iron Fist
  2. Stay Clean
  3. Be My Baby
  4. Rock Out
  5. Metropolis
  6. Over The Top
  7. One Night Stand
  8. I Got Mine
  9. (Guitar Solo)
  10. The Thousand Names of God
  11. Cradle to the Grave
  12. In The Name of Tragedy (w/ drum solo)
  13. Just ‘Cos You Got The Power
  14. Going to Brazil
  15. Killed By Death
  16. (encore)
  17. Whorehouse Blues
  18. Ace of Spades
  19. Overkill

Good show. Glad I went. Got the t-shirt (a limited “Motörhead – Austin” shirt). Rock out!

Updated: I just realized something. Motörhead played Austin on September 20, 2009. The setlist was almost exactly the same. The only differences? They played “Another Perfect Day” instead of “Cradle to the Grave”, and “Bomber” was played after “Killed by Death”. Like I said, the setlist was fairly expected…. but I didn’t think it was nearly the same as before! Ah well. Still enjoyed the show.

Planetarium in Austin?

Austin is one of the few major cities in the US without a planetarium.

Apparently this may change.

I knew about the Austin effort, but this new Cedar Park effort could be cool. What was disappointing to read in the article was they seem to want to keep the 2 efforts distinct. I don’t know if the city can support 2 planetariums (not sure what the market is like… maybe lots of Pink Floyd laser shows to help finance it… lord knows there are enough stoners in this town), but that there didn’t sound like an effort to perhaps work together to at least ensure 1 gets built. But oh well.

Still, I’d like to see one in town. I’m no rabid star-gazer, but I remember going to planetariums as a kid on school field trips and how cool it was. It’d be cool to go to one again, and take my own kids.

If it fits, it ships

The US Postal Service has their flat rate Priority Mail service. You get a box for a flat rate, and if your stuff fits into that box it ships in that box for that flat rate.

I always wondered about that.

If I had a clump of feathers that fit in there, it’d cost the same as a clump of lead that fit in there. While the volume may be the same, the weight certainly is not. I wonder how much USPS’s price determinations take such things into account.

The Postman just stopped by my house. He needed help with my delivery because well… it weighed a lot.

I really wonder about that “clump of lead” part… because what I received was my shipment of 9mm 115 grain FMJ bullets from Precision Delta. 🙂  Lead indeed.

Never used PD bullets before, but without question they were inexpensive, especially when ordered in bulk. They seem to be well regarded and reviewed so hey… why not? Part of reloading is for the cost-savings. My 9mm recipe seemed to fair the same regardless of bullet used, so we should be good to go here.

We’ll see how it goes.

Going faster

The Rogers Shooting School is one of the top shooting schools in the nation.

Claude Werner used to be the chief instructor there.

Check out the description of the minimum required to attend their intermediate class:

Is for those who are experienced handgun shooters but have never been to the Rogers Shooting School. To qualify to take the Intermediate course a student must already possess the skill to be able to draw a center fire handgun from a concealed carry position or a duty type holster and reliably hit a man sized target at 10 yards in less than 1.5 seconds.

Not an unrealistic minimum, but certainly challenging. I ran some tests this past weekend and was hitting a 10″ (or could have been 12″) steel target at about 10 yards in 1.6-1.7 seconds. So I’m on the cusp. I know what I need to do to improve this, and I’m getting there. It’s a combination of 2 key things: 1. getting on the trigger sooner (currently working on this, but it’s not ingrained in my muscles yet), 2. seeing less but still seeing enough. In fact, I distinctly remember the first timed draw I did was 1.7 seconds. On the second draw I distinctly remember seeing less but still hitting the target. I’ll get there.

I dig Rogers’ philosophy. They strive to make you shoot faster on smaller targets, and from tougher situations like 1-handed shooting. Self-defense shooting isn’t easy to do, and they strive to work towards that end.

One cool thing? Claude has a YouTube channel that shows some of the Rogers tests. Sorry, can’t embed them here, but go watch, especially Test #7.

It stings!

After yesterday’s AT-2 class I shot my snub revolver with the Hip-Grips on it.

I shot 5 rounds of my carry ammo.

I shot only 5 rounds of my carry ammo because that’s all I could stand to shoot.

Ouch.

It hurt. Bad. 😦

The first shot? It hurt like hell. The second shot? I missed my target (an 18″ x 24″ steel plate at about 12 yards). There’s no excuse for missing that plate…. other than I pulled so bad because I was anticipating the recoil and associated pain so much. 😦

I shot the remaining 3, and missed one of those as well. That’s all I shot. I had more than enough. You know that part of your hand where the index finger phlanges meet the metacarpal bone? That joint? Their “pad” then on the palm? That still hurt when I was getting in bed last night. It’s from how the gun recoiled and how that part of the hand rests against the hook of the Hip Grip.

You know, I like the Hip-Grip concept, but ouch ouch ouch.

Now, this really isn’t totally the fault of the Hip-Grip itself. That is, the Hip-Grip is really just a bare-bones grip around the small frame of the revolver. If you had any other sort of hard, minimal grip like that the effect would be the same. The small grip doesn’t fill my hand, so the snub rocks around during recoil. There’s nothing on the backstrap, so my hand gets to absorb everything. It just plain hurts. The one thing I can say about the Hip-Grip is the hook portion, the way it rests against my palm (as I mentioned above) does seem to cause me a little more pain. But this is me… I’ve got my own hand issues as it is.

I’m still waiting for the T-Grip to come in. I think that will help some because it will fill the grip out and should help it fit better in my hand. But Justin was saying that really won’t help with the recoil back into the web of my hand. I’ll wait and see how it works for me.

Some may say that the pain won’t matter because in a real situation you won’t feel it. Perhaps. I’m concerned about recoil moving the gun around too much because I can’t get a complete grip on the gun, but perhaps the T-Grip will help that. But moreso, I do not want to practice with this setup (I didn’t bother trying out my plinking loads, but I should have). If I don’t want to practice, what good is that? So switch to better grips for practice? No, because I should practice with what I carry.

I will say, I kept thinking what I like about the Hip-Grip is that appendix location. Before I became aware of this carry mode I had thought about getting an appendix holster and using that. Who knows. I may try going back to the Pachmayr grips and an appendix holster instead. We’ll see. If nothing else, the exploring and experimenting is fun. Have to find what works for me.

AT-2: Force-on-Force Scenarios

I spent yesterday taking KR Training’s AT-2: Force-on-Force Scenarios class. That’s the one thing I’m “behind” on in my training is FoF training. I’ve been wanting to take more, but there’s always been scheduling or other issues that have prevented it. So while I’ve done some FoF training, nothing has been as dedicated as yesterday’s AT-2 class (e.g. other FoF has just been a component of some other class).

For those that don’t know what force-on-force is, think of it like sparring and role-playing for self-defense. There is no live-fire, but through the use of tools like Airsoft guns and inert pepper spray containers, you can actually act through self-defense situations. Some people in the scenario are “good guys”, some play “bad guys”, and some people are just innocent bystanders. Some situations can be solved without ever having to fire a shot, some situations will only end in a gunfight. The bottom line is you have to use your wits and training to solve problems in whatever way you can. Sometimes things work out, sometimes things don’t. The key is to put you through situations now. If you’re going to make mistakes, make them here where cost is minimal. You also learn what may be the right thing to do in such a situation, and what’s right for you may not be right for someone else. The key hope is by going through this, if you ever find yourself in a situation you’ll now be able to say “Hey, I did this before” instead of freezing with an “Oh shit, what do I do now?”

From the class description:

About scenario-based training: Our philosophy is that scenario based training is the only way to fully experience all the variables present in a real confrontation, most notably live opponents that talk, move, think and shoot back. The goal of our scenarios is not for students to have paintball wars or for our staff roleplayers to boost their egos by defeating students in impossible-to-survive situations. The training is like sparring: during the first half of AT-II, and during the prerequisite courses, students have learned the skills and responses required to ‘win’ the AT-II scenarios. Just as in real life, the best response may not always be to use deadly force, which is why students must make decisions more complex than ‘shoot/don’t shoot’. They must decide whether to talk or run, what to say, where to run, where to move, when/where/who to shoot (and in what order), and what to do after the incident is over. Unlike many schools who stop the clock when the last shot is fired, we test our students’ ability to deal with injured family members, bystanders, arriving emergency personnel and unexpected incidents.

Our goal is to challenge students to use what they already know, under time pressure. We expect students to make mistakes. Each scenario is de-briefed and students typically get the opportunity to repeat scenarios to correct errors. The purpose of scenario based training is to give the student experience in winning – but winning must occur as a result of doing the right things, not as a result of the roleplayer throwing the victory to the student. Most of us, when asked to give an important presentation, will prepare and rehearse before the actual event, so as not to make a terrible error onstage. The price of making a mistake in a real world confrontation is high, and live action scenario based training provides a venue for students to make (and correct) potentially fatal errors in less hazardous environment.

While force-on-force is primarily a “gun world” thing, it really is a concept that ought to be applied to any sort of self-defense training. To be in the dojo practicing one-step sparring techniques or other randori isn’t a bad thing, but consider the context you are working for. If you’re truly working to provide self-defense training for people, then provide self-defense training for people. Put people in real situations, role play it out. Yes, you still have some level of control, some degree of restriction, but done right you can get surprisingly real. For instance, even tho we use Airsoft guns, there’s still something about seeing a muzzle pointed at you and projectiles coming your way that is most disconcerting.

The Class

AT-2 starts in the classroom with lecture. The lecture discusses the realities of self-defense situations, before, during, and after.

The “before” component is discussing what can and should happen before a confrontation. The main thing? Mindset, which includes awareness. The best way to win a fight? Don’t be in one. If you can see a potential bad situation before it happens and avoid it? That’s the way to do it.

There’s a discussion of the Jeff Cooper Color Codes. You can read the linked article if you’re unfamiliar with the concept. One thing I appreciated hearing was Karl’s take on condition white and condition yellow. For many that espouse the color codes, they find yellow is the only condition acceptable to be in, except when you’re asleep. The reality is, this is difficult to do. Ever had a time at work when you really needed to focus on the task at hand? If so, you just slipped into condition white. Is that a bad thing? It depends. If you know your environment is fairly secure and there are ways to be notified should something start, going white could be OK. For instance, the Starbucks may have free Wi-Fi, but if you’re head-down in your laptop computer or iPhone checking email, you’ve gone condition white… and while you may still look up and keep an ear perked, while you read that email you probably slipped into condition white for a moment. Perhaps it would be better to wait to do that email from within your office? The reality being, we will slip in and out of white and yellow all day, it’s how life can be. Instead of saying “going white is unacceptable”, realize and acknowledge it happens and take steps to deal with it.

The other key component of the lecture was discussing the “after”. This includes things like the psychological effects, both immediate and long-term, as well as dealing with things like when the police show up on scene, and lawyers. One advantage of this lecture is another instructor, Justin Galindo, is a member of the Houston Police Department, so Justin was able to give some insight into that aspect of the situation.

The Scenarios

After lunch we got suited up in Airsoft gear and headed out. We started divided into two groups. One group went outside to do Airsoft-based scenarios, the other group stayed inside to discuss building techniques. My group started inside. The discussion was introducing “building clearing” techniques, but the reality is this class is not for SWAT or Police but private citizens. As private citizens we are not going to be clearing buildings. Why should we, especially since if we did any sort of building movement likely we’re going to be alone. It’s just dangerous and asking for trouble if we have to do it, but on the same token there’s rarely going to be reason or need to clear things.

For instance, if you’re home alone and hear a bump in the night, is there really any good reason why you should go through your house to figure out what that bump was? It’s unlikely. If it’s a serious enough noise (e.g. you heard your door being kicked in), better strategy is to hunker down in your safe room (likely your bedroom, in this case), arm yourself, dial 911. The reality is you don’t know what’s out there, and it could be worse than you can imagine. Do you really want to go into the unknown? Well, maybe. The question is: is it worth your life? Is it worth dying for?

To answer that question, perhaps there is something out there. Maybe I’m not home alone, maybe my child is sleeping in their room and the noise sounds like it’s coming from that direction. In that case, yes I probably will need to move and thus building clearing technique comes into play.

Two techniques were discussed: slow clearing, and fast clearing. Slow clearing is what you typically associate with clearing, moving slowly around corners. Unfortunately if I hear my child scream down the hallway, I don’t have time to do that. Thus we come to fast clearing. Fast clearing is just what it sounds like, but to make it truly effective you need to do your homework. That is, this is your home and you ought to know it well. Thus on a Sunday afternoon when you have nothing else to do, you should go through your house and slow-clear it. Learn the angles, learn the hiding places, learn where you may have blind corners. This way when you must fast clear your house you can do so and know where to look and what to look out for. As well, you may want to take steps to aid your clearing ability, such as putting up decorative mirrors to help you see around corners or into tight spots.

After this discussion and practice, my group went outside for our first series of scenarios. These were set up as home-defense situations, and they ran the gamut, from totally innocent situations to serious problems. The key was to pay attention and be prepared. In one situation I was in, I was in my bedroom with a host of options (cell phone, gun, pepper spray, baseball bat). I hear this crash at my front door. Of course, initial reaction is “WTF?”, I grab my gun and hunker down, dial 911 and start talking to the operator…. but as the event went on it was evident the intruder was drunk and confused and likely no harm. I reached back out from my location and grabbed pepper spray and resumed my hunkered-down position. It was key and important to listen.. communication, from the “bad guy”, by me the “good guy”, it’s really a key element in these scenarios. Yes often we’re taught to not engage the “bad guy” in conversation, and there’s something to not being drawn in, but on the same token we must listen to what they are saying, watch their non-verbal communication, and decide what is right to do because that is so key in successfully defending yourself.

After the “in home” scenarios, we went inside and worked with “restaurant” scenarios. The key here? It’s you as a CHL-holder in a public place. A key lesson? Do you always know what’s going on? And are you going to get involved? I mean, if someone comes in and holds up the cashier and runs out, are you going to get involved? If that hold-up guy points his gun at you, does that change things? Self-defense situations at home may be one thing, but out in public it’s certainly another.

Finally we ended with “7-11” scenarios. So we started with very simple scenarios, and every scenario and situation has grown in complexity, both the situation presented and how to deal with it. I found myself being an innocent in one scenario. I was in such a situation where the robbery went down, “Oh shit! head to the back room…. oh shit, there’s guys shooting each other in there! Oh shit, there’s guys shooting each other out here… oh shit, there’s nothing do to but… damnit ,I just got shot.” On the surface it’s kinda funny, but the reality of the situation was yes, that’s how things could be. I had no idea how the scene was going to play out. I had no idea the chaos that would ensue.

That reminds me of another situation I was in. It was in the home scenarios. I was at home, loud noise of my door being broken in, I hunker down then see some bad dude rushing in at me so I move from my hunkered position and start shooting at the guy. He falls down to the floor and I’m watching him…. tunnel vision kicked in so then I distinctly remember reminding myself “SCAN SCAN SCAN” (you want to break your tunnel vision and scan around you because you never know what might be around you). Sure enough, I start to scan, look out the bedroom door and there comes bad guy #2, our eyes meet, and we shot each other and the scenario was stopped. Not fun, eh? The reality is, you can try to do everything right, but there’s no promise nor guarantee you’ll come out alive and unscathed.

What I Got From This

I maintain that FoF training is sobering. There are people who think it will never happen to them and they do nothing to prepare for bad things to happen. When bad things happen to those people, they freeze and suffer. Then there are people that grant bad things could happen to them and take some steps. These people have a better chance because they’ve probably at least adopted the right mindset. But do they have a plan? Gun folks can be especially bad at this because they may view it as “I’ve got a gun, I’ll be OK”, which is well and good, but a gun is not a talisman. “Oh, but I go to the range regularly.” That’s great. Marksmanship is important… but standing in a bay shooting stationary cardboard at 7 yards only takes you so far. In all the shooting done in AT-2? It was rare that someone looked at their sights and got that perfect sight picture. You were moving, the bad guy was moving, there was chaos all around you. But more importantly, not all problems were solved by shooting. Just because you have the hammer, don’t think everything out there is a nail. FoF training can be very sobering.

That said, FoF training isn’t perfect, but even in that you can find something to learn. For instance, in one scenario I was merely to be “some innocent guy” that went into the store, wanted to buy something, didn’t have the money, goes to the ATM to get money, buys something, then leaves. What happened? I ended up being the guy that got mugged as my cash was coming out of the ATM machine. I was a bit upset with myself for having gotten mugged; I’m not kicking myself too hard, but instead I’m learning from it. You see, while I was role-playing I was doing just that: role-playing. I was told to play this innocent guy. I was having a thespian moment, playing my roll. I recall being into the roll, playing my part. And I obviously played it well enough because I got mugged. So I felt good about playing the roll I was told to play. But on the same token I kicked myself because I felt I went totally condition white (see? it’s that “being focused on your task” thing). I should have been looking around. I should have been aware of my surroundings and situation, especially while standing in line for the ATM. Would this have been not playing my roll? That’s actually debatable. On the one hand I wasn’t told to act in that way. But on the other, role players can have some degree of latitude. For instance, if I had made myself a less-attractive target by being aware that too is teaching something to everyone involved in the scene (during the debrief). So it was a bit of mixed-emotions for myself, but I refuse to kick myself for it. This was about learning and I learned a few things from this one.

Conclusion

If you are serious about self-defense, you need to do Force-on-Force training. This is especially true if you carry a gun for self-defense.

FoF training is nothing to be afraid of. The AT-2 stuff, sure there was some physicalness because you moved around and maybe have to move quickly to react to things, but it wasn’t some serious throw-down. The physicalness was nothing more than any normal person ought to be expected to do should a self-defense situation arise (e.g. kneel down, move, etc.). Most of what you dealt with was mental: your wits, your decision-making. It’s such a vital component of self-defense.

Yes you’re going to make mistakes. Yes, you’re going to mess up. That’s OK. This is where you’re supposed to make those mistakes. It’s better that I made the mistake of being condition white at the ATM here than to be condition white at a real ATM. This is a learning environment, and so long as you learn and grow, it’s all good.

For those curious, KR Training will have an AT-7 with more FoF scenarios on April 17.

Sunday Metal – Motörhead

This week is the famous SXSW festival in Austin.

Premiering this week will be the Lemmy documentary.

Looking forward to that, here’s Motörhead with a great “later day” song and one of my favorite Motörhead songs, “In The Name of Tragedy”:

This is my box

Wife went to Costco yesterday, which means lots of cardboard boxes, which means heaven for one of our cats. This cat is obsessed with cardboard boxes.

This morning while I was walking to the kitchen, I saw one cat managed to get a box flipped over on top of her. Cardboard-obsessed cat was nearby, waiting. I flipped the box over to release trapped kitty, and within an instant of the box hitting the floor, cardboard-obsessed cat sprang into the box claiming it for herself. Upon landing in the box, her body language was such that the first thing that went through my head was:

This is my box.

There are many like it, but this one is mine.

My box is my best friend.

It is my life.

I must master it as I master my life.

My box, without me, is useless.

Without my box, I am useless.

With apologies to the US Marine Corps. 🙂