Prepping for a weekend of learning.
Feeling run down from all the dieting.
Work is good, but just exhausting.
Haven’t had enough time with Wife and Kiddos.
Paying attention to most of the world around me, all I see is people being mean, nasty, closed-minded, bitter, harsh, “if you don’t agree with my narrow view then you are an asshole and should die a horrible death” types of attitudes.
I read Orange Goblin is going to tour the world in 2013, but it seems their only Austin show will be during SXSW… too many bands I want to see do this, and it means they won’t get much of a set nor that I’ll get to see them because I can’t justify the expense of SXSW for just one band. *sigh*
I’m just not feeling it right now.
I think it’s just a feeling of being worn out, and each feeds into the other. The diet has me running on fumes, which makes it harder to work, which leaves me more tired, which leaves me just wanting to go to bed, which means less time with the family, which bums me out, which leaves me not wanting to do anything, haven’t been taking the dog out on morning walks (which is part of my exercise), hard to want to do my own programming projects (which I’m stoked about, but I’m just pooped), and so on. I have been thinking about taking a day or more off the diet to try to refresh myself. I just don’t want to risk regression. I’m teetering on that edge tho. I’ve caught myself starting to slack on the diet, or allow myself a little something here or there to try to take the edge off. Not good.
Still going to try to smile tho. Forge onwards.